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It is always great to celebrate another year, another fate and another battle.
2010, would be another battle for us, Filipinos. In challenges, politics, hunger,poverty, another catastrophes, another killings,and  bad exposures. We had been wrapped up so well, last 2009 (too bad) i need to use last, though it's just a day ago.

A battle for us to watch out. Another time for us to shine, another opportunities,  another best and another worst. More surprises and chances of getting better. Another tears, another fear, and another smile. To pursue in this game of life, is the most scarriest thing to do. But facing it, is fulfilling. There is no easy thing to do, all takes an effort, sacrifices, sweat and blood to get it.  But it is amazing to achieve things this year with the sacrifices and knowing that you have it, not because it is easy, but because you work hard for it.

This year, would be exciting for us. For people who have waited for the long time to have a new baby, though there are those people who mourn because of losing someone. But that is the true face of life.

Let us not be weary, nor be dismayed. But be excited because a new day has come. A new  year of celebration, a new year of triumph and success! Let the faith stays inside.

Have faith in God-



It is always wonderful to reminisced those memories that we have in this year 2009. It was a great fight and a tough competition for us. Challenges and triumph. But the most amazing thing was we succeed and learned from those ways that we had been through.

It is always wonderful to remember those people, who shared smile with us. Those time that we are down, and those time that we won the game, they shared us with joyfullness in their heart. Our love ones, friends, relatives, boyfriend and girl friend, and most important is our God.

We kept the faith, for that is necessary in this life, though we stumble and fall, but  united we stand. Because being a Filipino is a gift, and being alive is a treasure. May this coming year 2010, let us remove all our grudges and say something good to the person that you met everyday. Because life is worth living!

Dry your tears, for 2010 is joyful year for us! God bless us all-


Oh my Gosh! We have been following this teleserye, knowing that we don't even saw the face of our God in this program. So now, we have the chance to glanced and see how gorgeous He is.

( mga bakla, hala tira na)

Welcome to the world of most influential people.

#1. Barack Obama- USA president, the first ever black american president.

How powerful is he? Let's count the ways: Presides over world's largest, most innovative, most dynamic economy; commander-in-chief of planet's richest, deadliest military; finger on button of nuclear arsenal containing more than 5,000 warheads; head-of-state of world's sole superpower; his Democrats have majorities in both U.S. House and Senate; recently awarded Nobel Peace Prize, apparently for general awesomeness.

#2. Hu Jintao-President Republic of China

Paramount political leader of more people than anyone else on the planet; 1.3 billion Chinese, some 70% in their prime working years of ages 15 to 64 powering world's low-cost workshop, transforming nation. Biggest buyer of U.S. debt avoided Chinese meltdown during financial crisis with massive stimulus package to encourage domestic spending. "Coming-out party" at 2008 Beijing Olympic Games showcased young, modern, harmonious society; reality often quite different—few political, religious, press freedoms; brutal suppression of Tibet; refusal to acknowledge Taiwanese independence. Still, credible estimates have China poised to overtake U.S. as world's largest economy in 25 years—although, crucially, not on a per-capita basis.

#3.Bladimir Putin- prime Minister Russia

Prime Minister might as well be known as Czar, Emperor and Autocrat of All the Russians. Vastly more powerful than his handpicked head-of-state, President Dmitry Medvedev. Presides over one-ninth of Earth's land area, vast energy and mineral resources. Former KGB officer unafraid to wield his power; invading Georgia, cutting off natural gas supplies to Ukraine or Western Europe (again). Declared nuclear power has veto on U.N.'s Security Council. The anti-Obama: "I'm deeply convinced that constant change is not for the better."

#4.Ben S. Bernanke- chairman US federal Reserve

Former chairman of Princeton's economics department and noted Great Depression scholar now guiding world's largest economy through Great Recession; has overseen massive growth in Fed's balance sheet, from less than $900 billion in liabilities in August 2008 to more than $2.1 trillion today. With federal funds rate now effectively 0%, the so-called Bernanke Doctrine calls for using monetary policy to stave off deflation. "The U.S. government has a technology, called a printing press, that allows it to produce as many dollars as it wishes at essentially no cost."
#5. Sergey Bin and Larry Page- founder Google US

If knowledge is power, maybe information is too. Brainy duo met in Stanford computer science Ph.D. program, now trying to put all the world's information at your fingertips. Known for collecting best and brightest young tech talent at Mountain View, Calif., "Googleplex"; employees encouraged to spend one day a week on personal projects; company often named "Best Place To Work" in America. Google guys' combined net worth of $30.6 billion would place them third on the Forbes 400. Yet despite professed intentions to "do no evil," Google is blamed in some quarters for decimating traditional publishing, journalism. Brin: "Some say Google is God, others say Google is Satan."

#6.Carlos Slim Helu- chief executive TELMEX  Mexico

World's third-richest man is dominant economic force in Mexico, personal fortune equivalent to some 2% of Mexican GDP. Telecommunications monopolist: His Telemex owns 90% of Mexico's fixed telephone lines; his TelCel has 90% of wireless market. Also head of group dedicated to improving Mexico's roads, energy infrastructure, water supply. New focus, media: Last fall snapped up 7% stake in the New York Times Co., largest after Sulzberger owner-family. "I think it's perverse to believe there shouldn't be strong companies in poor countries."
#7. Rupert Murdoch- chairman News Corp. US

"The man who owns the news" still believes in print, not afraid to use vast media holdings to further personal political views. Media empire includes leading British (the Times), Australian (The Australian), American (The Wall Street Journal) newspapers, in addition to tabloids like the New York Post and The Sun (U.K.). Also movies (20th Century Fox), books (HarperCollins), television (Fox, BSkyB), online (MySpace). Weak ad-marketing hurting his News Corp.: net loss of $3.4 billion in fiscal 2009, stock off March lows, but still well below 2007 levels, when he made a $5.6 billion gamble on Dow Jones. Accused Google of stealing content; threatened to block search engine from indexing his Web sites. "Quality journalism isn't cheap."
#8. Michael T. Duke-  President, CEO and  Director of WAL- MART STORE US

Runs world's largest retailer, more country than company: $401 billion in annual sales, 2 million employees, 8,000 stores. Wal-Mart alone is China's eighth-largest trading partner. Largest private-sector employer in U.S.; favorite target of unions; blamed and praised for backing Obama health care proposals, shifting economic power from manufacturers to retailers, from mom-and-pop to big box. "I am competitive by nature and I want to win."

#9. Abdullah bin Abdul Aziz al Saud- king Saudi Arabia

Absolute ruler of desert kingdom that contains the world's largest crude oil reserves, two holiest sites in Islam. State-owned oil producer Saudi Aramco most profitable company on Earth, earns more than $200 billion a year, has reserves of 260 billion barrels or 25% of planet's known supply. Ultimate succession unclear: 85-year-old king's official heir is 81-year-old Crown Prince Sultan bin Abdul Aziz Al Saud. In 2006, established committee of senior princes to ensure smooth transition in the event both become incapacitated.

#10. William Gates III- Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation US

Richest man in the world monopolized, transformed software business. More than 85% of world's hundreds of millions of computer users stare at, struggle with, Microsoft products on daily basis. Second act: Saving the world. Still Microsoft chairman, but now devotes day-to-day to his Bill & Melinda Gates foundation, the largest charity on Earth with $34 billion endowment. Foundation devoted to reducing hunger, improving education and fighting diseases like malaria, tuberculosis and AIDS.

#11. Pope Benedict XVI- Roman Catholic Church Vatican City

Spiritual leader is highest earthly authority for 1 billion souls, or about one-sixth of planet's population; runs Catholic Church, world's oldest, largest multinational. A staunch traditionalist, unbending on reproductive matters, yet conservatism comforting to many.
These and more. I just noticed, no Filipino. hehehehehe. Where are we?


It's been a while, i am trying to make my self  happy and delete every bad memories that makes me sad this year. For the past months, it's been a hard task. A task of making my self happy, beyond the fact that i am not.

I am sad, longing for someone who impossibly cannot be mine.  I felt crazy, i felt i am damn stupid guy who wished for the stars to shine, beyond the fact that it is rainy night.I am looking for a place, to make myself suitable, I am standing on a bridge, thinking about you each day. I wanna shout and let the   world know  how badly needed you now. I am waiting in the dark, wide open eyes. Dreaming that you will knock the door and i will be excited to open it for you. Then, you will smile at me, hug and cuddle me in bed. Oh, how i wished it will happen again.

But that is all my dream. My dream that sucks. My heart that cries for you. I wanna tore this world. I wanna break the silence that hits me everytime i am alone. The annoyance of this night makes me fool. I convinced my self sometimes, that " we can't be together", yes, somehow i find it okay, but i know most of the time, tears coats my eyes and wept. It is stupid to dream, that is is impossible. But it is more stupid if i will pretend that i am happy, and get over on things that i treasured the most but was gone. It sucks.

I am longning for someone, yes i am. I wish you will take me with you, it's a damn cold night. Take me by  your hands and take me with you! But these words will remain unspoken. Wish it will be.


hope you will like this..
It is been a wonderful journey for us. For the past 12 months that we struggles to survived in the challenges of life. It is such a great thing to remember  how lucky we are, to strive is not easy. But being hopeful that there can be miracle if we believed, and that makes us great. We are survivor in our own battle this year.

The 2009 is a memorable year and unforgettable. We faced so many things, challenges and triumph. As this years' will end, it  is another new beggining. A new life and a new change. A new battle, a new failure but i know there would be another new success. We just need to believe our selves that we can make it. And that makes us different.

To all people who became a good friends of mine, foes and those who wanted to be with them. I am happy to say that " thank you so much" It is an honor for me. Your criticism helped me to grow as a better person in life, your encouragements leave me inspired. So all in all, you made me happy.

To my blogger friends: free angie,eugene,caloy,arvin,bea trisha,kit2x,yj,greenman, kox,jag, and to all who diligently follow my blog, thank you. This is another experience for me to bkept. Another world who makes me happy. And another world that leads me to let my feelings out and let my voice be heard. Thank you for that wonderful exprience.

And to all of us: MERRY CHRISTMAS  and  HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!


 Time passes by, we grow up and we learned. We know how far we go, but we don't know how long will this journey takes. But our life is such a blessing. And therefore we love this so much.
I wanna wiped all your tears, and throw all your frustrations away, to make you calm each time that i saw you crying. And giving you a hand that the world never had before. I wish that everytime you saw my smile will helped you realized that I am happy to be with you.

My love for you will never fade, nor changed. Instead it will remain thesame and bigger and bigger, wider and wider. I remember the time that you are sad, nothing to do but to cry and show your hands to me. I know you need care,attention and  LOVE. There might be people besides you, but you are still empty. I am happy, the time that you smile, it helps me think  that you are still have the great chance of making your dreams come true. And that is, i am happy to share it with you. Listening to you, your plans and your goal is such wonderful to reminisced. Truly, you are getting better and better. I am happy for that, words that i shared with you, really manifests inside of you and making a huge part of  letting you slowly  recovered. How amazing to think.

You are happy and  that remarkable smile which always registered on my heart. Telling and convincing me that " i am happy tim", shuddered me. What if, i didn't spare time with you before, what will happen to me, to you and this world? Yeah, there might changes, but i know it is not really related to what we both need. Especially you.

We faced trials, I made a mistake. I hurt your feelings, you hurt mine. I touch your ego, you  hit mine. But hey, my love for you will never fade as what i've told you. It will remain thesame. I don't know what are you doing right now, but i know you are secured and happy  I  know you are slowly making a little step to realized that you are not frustrated nor distressed in making your dreams come true. Slowly, you will succeed. Believe me, and you will be like a huge star in heaven that shines every time you see that on heaven. Though tough time comes, but  i truly believe you are able to managed it. Til now, i don't know what are you doing, but i know you are a problem solver.

I will be leaving, and it will takes time for me to go back and see you. I will be going somewhere, where my heart never belongs to, but because of my dream that outburst everytime i think about it. I need to take it, and even the risk i will. i know, i will succeed, i cannot say i cannot make it, because once you will read it. It might turn you down. I have that vision, and you know who i am, I am a risk taker and an opportunity seeker. I think many times before i say "yes" to this journey that i will be facing. thinking about you, the people that will be left behind. though tears starts to fall, but it is better, than to pretend i am strong. That at the end i will quit. I can do it.

What you have, if you ain't got LOVE?  Nothing, so let this love stays inside  of us and manifest. For us to succeed.
LOVE, is all that matters after all. A problem that you feel so big, is just a grain of sand.


Many deserving young people wished to go to school and fulfilled their dreams, wanting to make it into reality. They shed tears and blood to find scholarships for them to finish their studies, and see to it that they will passed. It is the reality, that once you are poor, you need to exert effort so that you can have what you were dreaming.

You are determined, patient and confident that everything has its own time. Believing your self is the only weapon that you have. Because you know that at the end of this journey the word success will be yours. How wonderful to think.

Yet, in this life we found no way to people who rely too much on what their family got, money and everything will be yours. Just finish your studies, and get a good job. This is one pervasive problem that we  Filipino's were facing everyday of our life.

Most of the students who had given a great chance to go to school by their parents had just took their studies for granted, the worst thing was, they were really contented with 75, or as equal as 4.5. Heck,is this grades huh, i am not trying to imposed that i have my 100 excellent grades but it is just that i cannot imagine this kind of situation and having this delirious grades. With their big smile, and some kinda weird look when they have their report cards, the same thing, they will asked "hey did you passed?". yeah of course!

But to glanced back at his card, it is really a great OMG,  would be the conclusion. 75,76,75,78,75- wow good grades, then the worst thing, he nods at me saying " yeah". Jesus! but hello, he got a good car,ipod touch,expensive gadgets and all.  His parents kept on reminding him to get a higher grades for him to have good job. Hey mom, your son here is doing good! He has his good grades and it starts in 7 and ended up 7 too. Wow, hilarious isn't it?

Many students decided to go to school to learned, and be responsible. But going to school because you just wanna hang out and wanted to escaped everything in your house, yet get those hell grades, what for? It is just really depressing to think, that is why our country is facing such discrimination because of you!

Take responsibilty for yourself!


What can you say about your life in this year 2009?

Did your wish was fulfilled?

Are you broken hearted this year?

Did you cursed this year?

Are you ready for the next battle?

This is the question that i wanna share for you all, a story of our survival in this year. Good and bad happened this year, some triumph and some failure. We lost our love ones, but receive another brood. We found new friends and we have new foes. It is a wheel of life. We had been hit, but we survived. We cry but stand after it. We fall but we climb because it is necessary  in life.

Some people failed in realizing their dreams, i hope you are not. Don't worry, there is always sunshine after the rain. Wrath wrapped up this country,  Mr. Ondoy and Mr. Peping, we moan, the pain of losing loveones is like the a wound that no chance to be healed. Tears and blood reunited. So we become more positive in life.

We celebrated the victory of pound for pound king MANNY PACQIAO, Filipino laughed and cry for this victory over Peurto Rican Miguel Cotto. We became excited when our Philippines representative for Miss Universe 09 Pamela Bianca Manalo, was in good timing while competing with other 85 beautiful ladies to win the crown. But we failed when she never made it. Well it is okay. Good news came, most of Filipino artist had been noticed in the international entertainment industry, in the name of CHARICE, who graces the world with her rendition of the world known songs, like "I will always love you, Listen and more." Singing with the big wigs. Yam Laranas, the first ever Filipino who luckily direct his own movie but internationally, he was noticed because of his excellent work. So "the echo" came. Hope, chance will come, Iza Calzado will be noticed. Congratulations to you...

We mourned  when our President Cory Aquino died because of colon cancer, it is bad to remember that Willie Revillame, criticized it- but we already forgive him, but became more proud when she was featured again in Time magazine, this is the 3rd time. Your love and faith helped the world to know that there is God. Thank you!

The people focuses on their own lives and wish that their dreams will be fulfilled. And that is Angel Locsin, when she  was nominated for "best actress" category in International Emmy Awards 09,in her teleserye LOBO { the wolf} though she never get it, but being nominated is already an honor. Congrats Angel.

If Good news happen, i know demons roamed around.  The terrifying MAGUINDANAO MASSACRE,  that made Philippines as the number one most dangerous place for journalist and media. Too awkward to think that even other countries were making us, as their headlines. Yuck! But of course, we condemned it. The gruesome killing that lasted for more than 7 hours was such demonic and satanism to be compared.

Thanks God, the people who did it it, is now facing his debt and i believe he will be punished according to what he did.

This year is good to remember for me, not because i succeed of i failed. but it is because i am happy dealing with everything that happens to me. It helps me to realized that life is wonderful. We face trials but it is a part of our journey towards success. Life is a process! If we only believe, God will bless Us..

THANK YOU 2009, you are so good to us! Hope we are ready next years' battle!


Some says, LOVE  is one of the most wonderful gift that you can give and you can receive to one person. Either to your mom, dad, relatives, neighbor or even your special someone. Love heals the pain and wipe away all tears. It satisfy and nourished every human being who  needs it. Love is like  a magic, it works in both mortal and immortal side of life. Love is mysterious and too hard to understand. Every area of this must be filled, and every part of it must be used. Love is not selfish................

When loves hurts you, it has its meaning and reason why. Love cares and shows its real face and share moments to some one whom he enjoys to be with. Love is crazy...............

Love puts eagerness on heart of some one who loves you. And demands honesty. Though it is not selfish, but it needs time and effort  so that it will grow and become great.  Love is crazy but happy to have it........

Love never look you down, instead it lifts you up, and helps you to know you deserve every good things that will happen to you. It helps you to release the pain and filled every corner that needs  care and love. It shows you the real way. But suggest to try new things.... Love is hilarious, but enjoy....................

Love takes time, willing to wait. Love gives you the light, a good direction for life. Love helps you to make a change, and never forget the one you love. It reminds you, to be faithful and be determined. Love is a teacher.....

Love is everything. Love is greater than what we expected. Love heals the pain and helps you recover. Love gives you directions and show you the way...............

Love is God. And  God is love...

Let us share it everyday..


I  am lurking alone, thinking about life. And trying to make my day cool. The sun is too hot, its rays can burn you down. Dividing my day into 2 ways. Going to a conference for morning, art exhibit for afternoon. Tiring day for me. I make my self busy so that things will not be going wrong. If i will be alone, i know all those bad memories and pain will be remembered. And that is hilarious.

I met this one guy, way back. He is tall and good looking. Thought he will never recognized me from a far, because i know he is busy doing something in the internet. I ignore every stare that he does, and trying to be okay, knowing that the heart beat is really intense and high speedy echoe. White skin complexion and semi blond hair, cute little eyes, everytime he look at me i make it a point, i turned my head down and making my self busy as my fingers were pressing the key board. Pretending that i am. I open my face book, then check all those spams who stays on my house 3 weeks and i need to let them out of the way, before it will be occupied. So i was done..

Whoah, time helps us realized and teaches us to wait. At this time, i am ready to go, when he make his first move of asking me a question. Intact mind, i answered him right and with out any stupid reactions that would happen to me. Thinking that it would be the first and the last question i fixed everything, but he asked me again, then stare that would melts me like an ice. It is an icy feelings, (hehehehe). Then he is trying to build his rapport, and interact with me, so that good conversation will happen. His eyes sparks like a precious gems that i wished to have, intesity 1 million is what i feel.  He told me to have a short conversation, and knowing each other, then be good friends. He is just a local tourist here in Davao. It was his first time visiting the city, so i need to let him know everything.

It is a good conversation- feeling easy and cool. I guess he is really good in convincing people, i was one of them. But lucky enough, if given a chance to touch his red lips! I am sorry i just feel horny that time.(hahaha).But anyway, he asks me evrything about my life, from childhood to date, job and all.Whoah, who is the Media man here i guess its me. Why you kept on asking me now, but i know i cannot deny the fact that i feel different and it is something strange again. Knowing that we just met, and nothing to ponder. Because i know everything is just temporary for us. He lives in Manila. I am here, it would be impossible for us to make it. The time comes that i need to go, an intimate bidding of goodbye, the love and the deisre of touching his lips is now dying. So no chance buddy.

But wait, the movie has its sequel, and it happens that time! I left him, and  he go to  the hotel where he and his friends' were staying. I myself, walked in an alley, passing the lively street with a bad feeling. The voice of the street never speaks on what i feel. Suddenly, the phone rang, oh, i found his number. And he asked me about my location, then ofcourse without any hesitations, i replied saying ( dito pa ako salikod ng hotle, ng lakad, bkit pla?). Then the text message came again, asking me to go back just for a minute. Oh, then i did. When i saw him, i asked him why? but no answer to be found, he hugged and kiss me torridly, the feeling is really wonderful! awesome and fantastic! I love it! The lips that i  wished to have a great kiss, is here now, and we are doing it. The feeling of being unwated had been filled with love and happiness. All thing becomes more visible, and great. The positive side is here and alive.

Now, is the time of realizing that i am happy. Though he went back home, i know i feel the real thing about love. Who are you love, that teaches me this way.

irwin, you makes me so inlove!
Who are you?


I met so many youth, many friends and people who lived in this world. Happy, vibrant spirit. I asked them about their lives, and about their journey in this world. They said that it is good, some said it is wonderful, they're happy and enjoying everyday of their lives.  That is awesome to know that they are happy.

But it came to a point that, i need to ask about the situation of the earth right now. I am tasked to do it. I am afraid to asked, not because they might be mad at me, but i might be surprised with their own answers and how would that answers affects me so much. Hey, not sentimental at all. But it would be damn thing for me to hear negativity and stupid answers. Infact we already know what is happening to this earth, and we are just fool, blind and deaf to take action, for saving and preventing any catastrophes to come. I am not wrong, it triggers stupidity and numbness in this world.

Some answered that, they care about nature and they are following the rules by not throwing garbage anywhere, it is awesome to know. Youth are now aware.On that survey, we found out that out 100 students, only 10% of them know how to take care about nature and an advocate of Global Warming.
So sad to know the fact that we are now in the middle of chaos, if we cannot reduce the CARBON EMISSION, all of us will DIE.

Where is the LOVE  for the earth now?  Please be aware! It is time to make a step!


PEACE, FREEDOM,JUSTICE- These are the things that we demand,we demand for us to be free, we demand for us to have freedom to speak and to live peacefully. But in letting go to what had happen to people who aims to let their voice be heard and let the truth prevails, is nothing but PAIN.

There are no others words to explain this tragedy and to define this! Than  EXTREMELY GRUESOME!!
People mourn, and struggling to survive while letting their  emotions to be in control, upon watching the hilarious happening  and watching those rotten cadaver of their love ones lying on the ground.

Bruise, headless, mutilated body, crashed faces, broken ribs, raped and most of all buried with out coffin.

Dream of becoming a great journalist, is the most wonderful thing that i wished to happen to my life. Or i would love to say this is my creme de la creme job. To write with justice and prevailing the real truth would be my main concern. Yeah, like those great journalists of the world who are willing to die just to fight for the truth, and that is an award winning performance for them, and i salute them so much. We can consider and document the killings of journalists once every year, but somehow it is still unfair for them to be treated like that,who only aims to let the truth prevails. It is the saddest truth for Media. But watching this violent killing of 50 plus(and still on search for others) people including 21 media men is such horrendous! Horrifying and grody experienced, we wished that young ones never witness this hilarious things.

Some questions formulates, and fear hover my entire body, while realizing that my dream is such important matter for me. But what about this spontaneous killings of journalist? I am worried that somehow, the truth that i would be fighting would lead me to grave. That would be bad for my family, like those people who wait long hours just to get and see their love ones who were now dead. Well God Almighty is great, he knows best for me! In grief and tears are falling. Some of them didn't resist to watch armies carrying those dead bodies that smells bad already. My self as an aspirant journalist, remain strong while my heart broke. Though i don't know this people, but name as a Media, it feels bad.
Now fear coats the world of Journalism, and i believe that most of them  think of changing their career. But i know beyond that, the spirit of journalism will still reign. There would be another great justice to come!

This MAGUINDANAO MASSACRE, reminds people how wonderful to be a journalist! It is not about fearing the danger that is waiting for you, everytime you cover every strories and big moments that the world has, but the eagerness in your hurt to find the real and let the truth prevails. Is such great and award winning!



Actually, I have been roaming around for the whole week. Somehow in that journey, i found some wonderful lessons about life. I know that life is mysterious lots and lots of people know it is. We even think about what will happen tomorrow or even later after writing this post. This few were includes in all pages that life have prepared for us. Oh, some strange feelings..

I have been living in this world for 19 strong years, with the lessons that i learned is good enough. But somehow to continue this journey i need to know more about  life.  Let's keep on learning buddy!

LOVE is in the air, my friends had been asking me  about the situation of my dear baby, she turned 8 months weeks ago. It is a great experience for me being called "dad" and watching her sleeping with a little cute snore. Wow, this is what we called life. I know when she will be going to school soon it would be another problem for me, the tuition fees,baon of course, her college education what about that. Well it's all in the bag. I am just 18 year old when i receive her as a great gift from God. From then, i never consider my self as young  and teenager. Instead I learned to be matured and be responsible for this gift that i received. Kinda hard, I can't deny the fact that i am too young of having a baby, yet i never blame my self nor her why did she allow it to happen. Because i know this is a gift from Him, I just need to take care of this and make her a good and responsible person in this whole wide world. (See, I am slowly getting older, not on my age huh, its on  experience)..

FRIENDSHIP  is greater than what i think, while i am in the middle of this little journey  i found some amazing things about life. Becky Belo, has her huge and famous tag line "only Belo touches my skin, who touches yours?". I just realized why did she wanted that tag line? Kinda irritating to her competitor huh. what do you think about Calayan? but i learned that in making tag lines, it reflects how would you manage and deal challenges and obstruction that would mold you to become a better person. Having a tag line helps me to become strong in facing the world and the new world with my baby girl. My friends helped me, young and mature. The first time that i heard my baby cryin' at night it was so disappointing, i wanna sleep and let her cry and cry until she will gonna be tired of doing it. But, hey i can't dare it. I grab her and put it on my lap,  and give her milk.  It is amazing thing, the time that i grab her she really cries, annoying and bad to hear. Gosh! but i noticed  her after that she just smile at me and slept. Wow, this is what we called life. Everytime i felt tired and wasted, i think about her smile and how did she makes me responsible. Even my friends noticed this trait that my little ANGEL has. Thanks God for giving me this blessing. It helps me a lot!

Now, when somebody asked me, I never pretend nor lie that i am single anymore. Some disagree and shocked, some of them sends their hugs and kisses to my baby.  In living my daily life, i believe change is happening: in my self, and in my life as a young daddy in town.

This is what we called LIFE!


I can't write! I am empty minded! I am sorry!


While a man was polishing his new car,
his 4 year old son pick up stone and scratched
on the side of the car.

The  man took the hands of the child and hit it many times.
Not realizing he was using a wrench.
At the hospital, the child lost all his fingers due to multiple fractures.
When the child saw his father, with painful eyes he asked:

Dad when would be my fingers grow back?
the man was so hurt and speechless!
He went back to his car and hit it many times.
Devastated by his actions, sitting in front of his car
he looked at the scratches the child had written.


The next day the man suicide..


Anger and Love has no limits
choose the latter to have a beautiful life.
Things are to be used and people are to be loved.
But the problem in today's world is that,
people are used and things are loved.
During this year, let us be careful to keep this thought in MIND  and  HEART!


Just listen to what is the message of this song and that is what i feel right now. i don't know, i am sorry guys, just that i don't know how to handle the feelings that i have inside. It is too hard to think that making a step for a brighter future is too hard to do.

It is unbelievable  to think how LOVE  heals the broken heart, and lift up the spirit with joy and gladness. I can't help, but breakdown and cry, unbelievable to think how LOVE  feels life heaven.

To finally be IN LOVE,  i now know what  LOVE  means. It is with out selfishness and ego. Willing to accept everything even though it is hard, but since you LOVE  somebody  it is gonna be okay. Even you are left undone still LOVE conquers all.

What is LOVE,  and why people die for it?

What is LOVE , and why people look for it?

What is LOVE,  and why people hate it?

What is  LOVE, and why people have been crazy?

Once again, life would teach you the  REAL LOVE. Because life is love.


The pageant with a cause. Unlike any other pageant, this pageant is promoting  ECO ADVENTURE, GLOBAL WARMING    and YOUTH EMPOWERMENT,  these are the 3 main advocacy why we come up with this pageant. One way of helping people to be aware about what the earth has been facing now. the pageant tackles about the environmental issues, holocaust and educating people about climate changes. we are now starting  in Davao city, and hope by next year it would be whole MINDANAO  and our country as well.

Because where you are, would always  be the starting point of everything that would happen to the world. By this campaign we wanted to be and eye opener to people for this main and great environmental issues that the world is facing now. Let us not be deaf nor be blind, because we  know what will happen once we are not gonna be aware of this matter.

As you watch this video, hope you will be uplift. Helping mother earth is always a great task to do, for it will help us making this world a place to live and not a place that will end to the soonest.



i just realized how wonderful the world, when my baby turned 8monhts this day. It is such awesome to feel. watching her learning everything, biting the little amount of hotdog, and observing her to slowly making a great move, a step that would help her know how wonderful the life. Observing her to make it sure that she can stand well, while her left or right hand is grasping the wall, for her to have the foundation is such a great thing to have. When she cries, i know she is hungry, when she smile and chuckle i know she is happy. A little life, that starts in a never wished dream to have, a story that never been told. The word CURSE,  somehow drag her way out, but since she is planned and the great purpose of God to let her alive. Discrimination was the memories, that helps me to have a strenght to make it, and encourages me to make something better.

Waking up every morning, and realized how beautiful the life beyond those challenges that we faced, is perfectly  wish of every people  who dream to have it. Every time i put her on a crib she laughs, i wonder why. But when i realized that  somehow, she is happy to be there not because she can move and crawl, because when she is in my hand, she cannot do any movements because i use to stop her. She is happy because, she can learned more on how to stand and learned to step. A step of growing up, with courage and dedication to learned every tricks to stand and move well. I might be too young to have a baby, but being responsible single dad, is very good to think. I know everything because of her. She helped me open up my eyes and be the best as i can be.

My baby, is a blessing, she is not a cursed one. She is my angel that God have given to me. Her smile heals the pain and helped the world know, that life is great.  I love you Shey!


1.)So many people LOVE to express their feelings, to share what they had learned and somehow they became a
teacher of different fields of life. This is life. A reason to live is love.  To express of what is inside of you is awesome, might be you will do it in the internet,writing books, news papers,vandalism is also way of expressing your self, and this way as well blog.

I just wanna share my great appreciation about internet, it taught me to many things, like current events, people who i never know before, through internet it gives me the way of  knowing them, even though they don't know me yet. But it is gonna be okay. That is what we called, TWITTER. You are following their moves every seconds or what so ever. It helps me finds great solutions about the problem that i never found the answer before, researching and ofcourse the entertainment itself,  Youtube and more. I just remember my last previous posts it is being addicted to internet capabilities. YOUTWITFACE  is the title of it.

Internet is good, it gives you great informations about the whole universe in its own packages. The knowledge that i have about this word INTERNET  is really too small, compared to what other people can do.  To tell you honestly, i don't know who to play  DOTA,COUNTER STRIKE,RF, CABAL ONLINE  this are just 4 of the games which most of people  love. (Note: i just asked my friend, i don't know this at all.)
So i can consider my self as one of the person who faced TECHNOLOGICAL CRISIS. I am sorry, i just forget the term of it, but pretty sure it is near to that.

So the blog is my favorite thing to do, during my free time, like to what other blogger have been doing, i love to write, and to express my feelings. It is about being aware of what other people feel about you, and likewise in the same way. Now, its been a long time, since i started to write here in this blogosphere. It helps me to release what is inside of  me and gives me good reason to live. I got hurt, and i bounce back. I failed or prevail, blog knows everything. But one thing that i noticed,to most of the blogger they gave a GREAT SHIT,  on what they were writing. Dis respect and somehow giving nasty comments. I explore, and checking good blogs,by reading it,it helps a lot. It gives me great emotion to write more and more, to  give informations and sharing stories for people who were looking for it. Might be not you, you can reject this topic, but what about those people who is willing to give and spare time just to read it. I guess i would be more happier! Sometimes, i think i am different. Not because i am not really use to hooked with technology but somehow  i have the different perception in everything that i do.Posting for your self,because you wanna be heard, with out concern to people who will might read it and end their life would be possible. Sex and all the stuff like posting videos, it shows that you yourself was promoting PORNOGRAPHY! Try to discipline yourself and be aware of what you were doing. don't make this blog as a place of exploitation. respect other reader and user of it.

Wait for the next pls...


We know that masturbation is one of the best thing to tackle. Admittedly I myself was executing it.
This topic, it is just a fruit of my stress mind who keeps on telling me why things happen in a way that we sometimes doesn't want it to be. We make things and become a habit, if we cannot control our feeling there are possibilities it will become a huge problem for us to be solved. So this stress mind see the masturbation in a different way. (I am sorry)...

We had a great meeting with my co-producers about our shows and all the stuff, when the doctor came in, we talked seriously about those issues that she will gonna be tackling on her show. And again my stress mind asked her if the masturbation is good for health or not. Well I am still young, so it is just easy to me to tell her about it.

She never felt any awkwardness of telling me that it is not a problem, instead it has a big space and character that is playing in our life. Wow! But i asked her, if  this would affect our daily life if we will always doing it everyday. The beautiful Dr. just said it is not, but it must be with a great control. According to the research  of students including me, your servant, 97% of male age 13 to 25 were masturbating everyday. (single/widower) or even married man do. And 13% of female do masturbation everyday. regardless if she is married of single.

I therefore conclude that masturbation is not a  problem. It will only become problem if masturbation will control you. So that means you lose control of it. Masturbation help released stress, and anxiety. It helps you relax and satisfied, this is safer than sex, from virus and any  diseases that we might get from sexual intercourse.

One thing to learned is, everything is always an asset in life.  It help us to be alive. Control is always the major thing to do.  And don't let anything will control your life. For this would cause problem.


I am searching something better! A new change, for life and for the world. I hope this video would become one of the great asset to help people to be aware about GLOBAL WARMING.

As of now, the CARBON DIOXIDE, that the world has, is 390 degree Celsius, but the earth needs 350 only. So because of this alarming situation, the United Nation decided to launch this to prevent and lessen the Carbon Dioxide that we have here in earth. The scientific studies, had said that on 2012, worst would happen if we cannot prevent it. By this campaign I my self supported it, not only for my own good, but for all the people in this wonderful place called EARTH.

To those people that would visit my blog, if your heart is aiming to help people to be aware, you can re post this, or copy the EMBED of this video. Let us help our MOTHER EARTH TO SURVIVED!!!

Hollywood celebrities, sports icons,supermodels supported this campaign. What about YOU?

Do it now, for the better future!

Thank You,



You think that i am quite crazy about posting this video of Janina San Miguel, it is quite long time when this incident happened. And most of Filipinos criticize her. The way she talks, and the big question was why did she made it and won the crown. For my self, yeah I did asked as well, are the judges were really good enough and why did they let Janina won the crown for "Binibining Pilipinas- World". Gosh, that is something hilarious! But when i realized that there must be a reason, why did Janina was announced as the winner that night. Okay, let me tell you what is the question for Janina that night.

"what rule did your family, flavor you as the candidate of Binibining Pilipinas"?...

This is extra ordinary question. It reflects on how the way your family helped you to be a winner, and how did they teach you of good moral character. Milli0ns of viewers around the world, especially here in our country speak on television,radio, and the hilarious comments on youtube. It is ridiculous, yeah I admit it. but one thing that I remember, there must be a great reason why did she made it. I wanted to let you know botox people that it is not easy joining that kind of competition. Most of them failed reaching top 15. You yourself, that you made it, you are proud enough, for this is something big, that your self had achieved!

Try to watch the video of this scandal( i can say that) considered as it is. You did as well.
And try to listen her answer on that question, might be you will be shocked and convinced yourself that I guess she really has the ability of winning the crown that night.
Botox people, you always have the tendency to judge, prejudice! but you don't know how to listen on one side, you don't know how to turned it to the next page. You focus on somebody's mistake just to let her down, instead of helping her, we derailed and show our bad and worst side. If you were Janina and being criticized by millions of people, including her, what would you do?

Something that we need to take a look. And be observant! Don't judge for you not to be judge. Focus one the last part.

Here is the brilliant answer that let her win the crown..

"But i said that my family is the most important persons in my life, thank you".

This is something that the judges based their decisions why did they allow Janina to win.
Your ridiculous comments, nasty words and worst verdicts that you threw on her, try to think back. If you are in that situation, what would you do? Enough Botox people!


As a kid, I used to ask my mom before what is that color blue above us. She would slowly say that it a place of forever. A place of happiness and joy. With the great hug, she will show me the picture of heaven and telling me, if I will do good I will be there soon. But as a kid, i asked her if there is anybody who lived there now and clean the house like what our friends' did in our home. With an eye popping look, she said yes, and the color of the house is yellow, the floor is yellow and my bedroom in there is also yellow. I greatly imagined it, how about my food I guess it is yellow also. I envisioned, eating margarine and cheeze everyday. Whoah!....

But growing up, and slowly knowing the things that I had asked to my mom before, things that i had discovered, the yellow color that my mind was struggling to know, is one of the very expensive things that the girls wished to have. And it is gold.

Due to some ideas that i kept inside, I made lists of things that i want. But it is too obvious if i will still jot all those things that I need to have in this world, or places that i wanna visit. So i made lists for the things i wanna see in heaven and in hell.

So here they are:


God,Jesus(his wounds),Angels,St. Paul,Peter,John the baptist,king Solomon,Abraham,David,Esther,Joshua, Mama Marry,palace, throne of God, his crown,grand pa,grand ma,cousin Jira, and the bed room that my mom had said.


Satan,demons,hell,dragons, 7 head beast,aswang,dracula,momo,lamia,vampires,valentina(the snake woman in narda)..

all of this has a great part in our daily life. wishing and wishing, dreaming about something. If I will be going to heaven that is the list i wanna see, or if in hell, just thesame thing.

If i will ask you, what list did you make for your self? And what place you wanna be?



I am gonna be crazy! Yeah, it is to obvious that nowadays I am so stress and wasted about those things that I need to do.

Hey! this is something that i need to focus on, but wait- I don't know this way yet. I am so stress!
- lady

Whoah! the pageant is fast approaching, i still need to close a deal for the sponsorship! My God, what should I do?

I slept early, I am sorry i forgot to inform you about my load today. I felt alone! Hey you people, just do it for now, let me focus on Sir Bag. I don't know what to do!
- sir skip

Gush! what about the production cost! Hey all AE's please make a sale, I kept on giving you all the needs where are the outcome?
-ms. grace

Hey, i am so afraid about this pageant, we haven't make any back drop for the stage, how about the riser,smoke machine, and the stage? If we don't have those things, I will be going home and slept!
-kuya don

I am sweating, I followed up all my clients and my sponsors. but still not yet confirm, haven't confirm it!

In my days in marketing, these words were my food,my water and my lover. The words of inspirations and encouragements were always the main menu. Planning on how to close a deal, even for x deal was such hard for us to close. Learning slowly, that was the words that my boss were always saying. I guess we are learning in the field of marketing.

Their complains and mine were really hilarious! Is this a proper thing to do as an AE? I just realized that it was wrong, when i talked to my dad and he said that: looking for a sponsorship, money or even an x deal, then you are fighting for airing and the establishment will be seen on tv, is not that easy. This is the job were you will earned well, but the struggle and the effort to hit it has a huge part of closing deals. It is the patience that would matter here, and your fighting spirit to make it through. He told me to stop complaining, but keep on moving, things will just gonna be better. Those words of inspiration make me alive, and be motivated by money.

One thing I that I learned, it is really a human nature, who complained! So do i, and we cannot change it, but minimize!


Two days ago I just did posting, it is kinda early to post again, for my new friends and old ones could read it. But seems the heart is looking for something to do, and that is to express of what I feel inside. The emotion, the hatred, aspirations and most of all the words that burst inside of me. Well nobody can deny that if you feel really different or something that your heart were strolling to one place to another, you yourself will wonder why. It is one reason of being bothered and restless at night. So for my self, i make sure that this feeling will swept away, and the new tim will be okay and motivated again.

When I am alone, I used to think of what will gonna be my life in 10 years from now. The life that I kept on wishing, can it be fulfilled? Or i will remain as usual like those people who never achieved of what their hearts' desire. Well I guess there were just wisher and not a dreamer. Dreamer have something to do about his dreams and will never allow his dreams to become a wish. So that is me. So it came to a point I think about going back to USA, and be with my family. How about writing for Oprah?

Fetching Oprah when she was young was really bad, she keeps on biting my hands, showing that she was refusing to go with back to her house, she walks so sexy, her tantalizing eyes had lead boys crazy. Loves adventures, chasing those enemies that she hated the most, whoah! Oprah, it is bad,but she will just glance at you with her big brown eyes that imposing that is her business. she is just trying to help DDS to kill those unwanted matter in this city. Oh really? Just don't ask what is DDS. One thing i learned from Oprah was he aggresiveness to one thing, if she wanted it, as long is she can get it without hurting anybody then she will pursue no matter how hard the way would be,the fighting spirit was such high and strong. But somehow she got tired and sleep a lot, there was one time she is trying to do something and she pursue it, astonishing she made it. But after that, one whole week she just stay at home slept!

I love the crazy character of Oprah! I love you my cat!!


this is something that we need to say thank you to God, for having this nature that we have now. Something that we people have to say "THANK YOU LORD"

this is facing PACIFIC OCEAN...

the floating island

the rock formations..

The realization of life will happen even in just looking at the picture, it will help you think that this is something that we have to say what is necessary to the creator for this magnificent face of the world. Be aware about the GLOBAL WARMING is one step to help us saved the world. If not, what will happen to:

fish on the sea who shines every time we saw them?
beast on the field who moan for joy if they were full?
flowers that helps the man to make the woman to be impressed?
how about the trees that sways its hands for freedom?
what about those birds who sings for us everyday?
what about my family, your family?
my ever changing friends?
my ex's, your ex's?
my lover, your lover?
and what about YOU?
and what about ME?

Do you wanna end up your life, because of not being aware about the feelings of others? If these things can talk they would probably say: " can you help me to survive"...
Let us start make a change now, making little steps will help us to make the world to move for the better life. May this word will be the way for us to be aware. Don't make it too late for your self to help.


Just woke up when I heard my phone buzzing. I picked it, and read the message. It is my friends' text. It is just really amazing for me to read it because it gives me the idea of finding something to post on my blog.

So here it is.....

The largest cell in the human body is the FEMALE EGG.

The smallest is the MALE SPERM.

A full BLADDER is roughly size of the softball.

The average of man's PENIS is 3x the length of his THUMB( no erection).

The average SLIT of woman's VAGINA 2x the length of her THUMB.

It takes food 7 seconds to get from your MOUTH to your STOMACH..

P/S: i know you are still looking at your thumb.


We always dreamed to be somebody someday. To be like those people that we idolized the most. In other words, we dreamed to be professional someday, that dream was so sweet to hear in our ears and a wonderful thing for our hand. It is like a diamond that girls were wishing to have it, and it is like a car for boys that every time they see it, they were shouting one day soon they would owned something like that. Well we can wish and dream. The drive that we have inside help us to be patient to wait, and helped us to be more determined to achieve the word PROFESSIONAL.

And God blesses you so much, you achieve it. The things started to changed, from simple to fabulous, from rent house to a huge condo, from commuting to owning a BMW. So awesome to observed people grow up like this way, the breakthrough was really huge. I am happy for them.

To observed and see them, owning the world with fabulous things, A T M's, travels abroad was so fantastic! Wow, how i wish I can have it. And be like that, one day soon. But living with this things and be with this world was the most horrible life, I am not saying all of them, but somehow we forget who we are when have the power and the money itself. We thought that all people would respect us, and we can grip them easily.

So the things started to changed- and the attitude reaches its intense power. You become arrogant,boastful,unkind to people,you wanted to be the center of the attraction, and most of all you lose the respect that you have for them and for your self. You didn't care of what people feel, and what other thinks about you. It means " you never leave with other peoples' expectation". It is good to have this attitude, but somehow it is just too over for you to used it. That you might hurt some one because of this phrase. When you are in trouble, you used to focus on those bad things that your enemy has. You boast your self. And of course what you had achieve in life.

Is this the lesson that you had learned? In your grade and high school, did your teachers told you to be like this when you will have things that you wished? Did your parents instilled in your mind to be arrogant, once you will be professional? How about your church particularly the priest who baptized you? Friends influenced?

Now, do you deserved to be called as professional? And do you deserved for that great respect?

I think, it is NOT! Well definitely, and exactly its NOT! They never ever told you to do bad things when you get old, instead they taught good things,giving you good words, for you to used it, for your self and of course for people. This is not a competition! This is life, we need to achieved something for our selves, for our family to proud of, but if these things will just make you to be rude, "it is useless to have it". If you will just become stupid and be blinded with these achievements, " throw it" for these are just waste stuff who will probably lead you down.

Always remember that:" being professional never required college degrees, fame, nobleness, awards, and great stuff. It just asked one thing and that is the respect that will helped you realized, how wonderful is the life if you achieved something for all".


NO place is ever safe on earth. Nothing lasts forever.
Nice cars,
Grand houses, the presence of family and friends.
Everything is temporarily. Life is floating in a small water.
One thing that we can always rely on, is our great faith in God and our prayer for our selves.
Be thankful that you survived, because he made you stronger than ever.
To make you ready in eternal life.
Where in that place there would be no flood nor typhoon.
Sadness has no place. So think positive and win the world!


Hey there, I think 7 times if I will gona post this picture of mine.. (hahahahahaha)
this is just a fruit of my stress mind and life. You can mock it, if you want. But i will accept wonderful comment.. (hehehehehe).. Conquering the world of modeling, done with hosting, producing local tv shows,disc jockeying- so here comes the new model, hope Ford fashion model will give me the best treat for this. Look I show my buds, and it is not easy to do it. Your dignity itself. (hehehe).

Lets ride with the wind, and go where the breeze takes you!!!

there is always a place for me, I born to LOVE and BE LOVE....


We always had a bad story. An experience that led us down and make us weak. In that way that we had been through, we find nowhere to go, no person to talk to and helpless. We thought that this is the end of the world. That the dreams will be taken away from our hands. The hope was gone and seems the world is trying to hide her face from you. The depression inside of you, starting to eat and making you wasted. You lose your hope! You wish to die. And attempted to kill your self.


Angie: life is always awesome, it is always wonderful and sweet.
there are no boundaries nor barrier to hinder you in reaching your dreams
no more fears,no more doubts for life that you have is a blessing.
everything that you wished will be granted.
Love is a blessing, so keep it deep with in your heart.
face the battle, there are no other ways, this is the only life that you have.
depression will never hover your life again.
things will be changed.
you are more than conquerors!
you are a blessing not a cursed.
you are lucky not a problem
you are born different, so you can make a difference!

This is just a small gift of words from me, but it will help you a lot in making your dreams come true. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUDS! MAY THE WONDERFUL GOD WILL BLESS YOU SO MUCH..



We always tested by time and we always proved that we can make it. By slowly moving and making little steps to overcome those trials that is a part of our daily life. We are immune about the word "TYPHOON" this word defined as terrifying and we know how terrific it is. But no matter how strong it was, we always win the battle and knock down the enemy. We know the that there is always a reason to live and there is always a place for us. And that is why I am shouting:


This UNDOY, that we faced this week and the upcoming PEPING, is just a dust for us. A tiny little rock who wanted to broke us down. But since we are strong and stellar it cannot beat us! One thing why I love to stay alive, it is because of the LOVE, for nature and especially for your fellow Filipino who faced problems in life. Typhoon UNDOY is such a nerve wracking experienced, not just here in Philippines but across South East Asia. It destroys buildings,houses,roads,railways,bridges,and most horrible it kills life. And left us mourning. Left us cripple and most especially starving not only for food, but for the people the love one who left us in just blink of an eye. So sad to think but it happens.

UNDOY WAS STRONG- yes proven! but we are stronger than that typhoon. The heart of the Filipinos were really precious, in time of danger and need we help our fellows to survive. In BAYANIHAN SYSTEM it shows how intelligent and pure heart we Filipinos. Assisting people in little way is really awesome to observed, by donating your one year old piggy bank, just to help others who were suffering from hunger. But the most amazing was, you are helping other people instead of helping your self. Not because you wanted to get the attention of MEDIA, but your pure heart is outbursting to help and even though you'd lost your house still the Filipino smile is in your heart! This way we can encourage more and more people. We don't need millions but one smile is more than millions of hope and success is in the package of it. In this subway of life, we might feel that we are loser and we are tired, but one thing to remember that:

WE FILIPINOS BORN WINNER...... Let us prove that we are! I LOVE YOU FILIPINOS!


Hey UNDOY! This is such a great holocaust for us Filipinos of what you have done, though my place is not affected but it is still hard for us to think what other Filipinos were facing today. Lacking of food,water,medicines and more. We lost our love ones! And this is one of the most terrific thing for us UNDOY!

But one thing you should always remember, we will never ever quit in what you do, we will accept it, never to hate you. But you will always in our hearts and minds. September last week, you came into our life and took away what is ours. It is hard, but thank you for the great learning that you impart for us. I will show you the picture of how strong I am to find the light! I will survive!


I just reminisced those memories that America's Next Top Model cycle 12 was still airing. It is fantastic and one of the most viewed ANTM episode. Not just for gorgeous ladies, but for the exciting challenges that the aspirant models will be facing. Their attitude and how to deal with each other. In this episode I found some lesson to be learned in life. How to face your fears and how to make this world astonished on what you do, and what you are. It never demands if you are tall or small,gorgeous or ugly,rich or poor or what ever and who ever you are in this world. What matters the most is how will you make a history, that the world will remember you.

I noticed it, though every episode she always hug her eliminated contestant she always gave such words of encouragements. But then I am not really satisfied those past comment and words she said for eliminated contestant. Until I found this episode, this cycle 12. Well every people grow up and so Tyra, she grew up in terms of saying words to those defeated ladies. When Kortnie was being eliminated, she is gorgeous but yet not deserving to be come ANTM. So she was voted out. But Tyra gives her a wonderful advice that I know she will never forget. Its being about to show your emotions and your feelings in everything that you do. And be the best out of it. People,all of us was created perfectly. It is just that we never feel it, and we never know how precious are we in the eyes of the creator. So think that you are capable!

Now facing my fear is really hard, but when I realized that I can do it and prove to mockers that I can do. Great lesson was being learned. And that is how to gain confidence and learned to fight for a good success. May the perception will never be changed.


This is just a simple question yet very meaningful.And that meaning describes how aware are the people about this so called GLOBAL WARMING.

What is global warming for you, to me, to youth, young ones and old ones? Are you aware of this?
We had done our audition for our pageant gods and goddesses of Davao. It was good and very successful audition. We come up with this project for global warming awareness, and to help our mother nature recovered of what she is facing right now. In this way, we can open the eyes of the people who live in this city, that they must be aware of global warming for their own good as well.

But not all people were aware of this issue. We screened 11 male and 6 female. Beautiful and very gorgeous faces. Tall and handsome. Seems all things were complete. But to find out if they were aware about climate changes and global warming, yes they knew it, but the causes and effect of global warming was really far from their handsome and gorgeous aura. One contestant had been asked about" how to conserve energy" Well what a wonderful answer he said that" he will sleep early and go to the gym every day". Oh all eyes was really opened so wide. Is that how the way you conserve energy? Then another one came along, the pretty sexy lady. Astonishing look. She had been asked about "Noise pollution" Well at first the answer is straight, thought is there. But when she asked about how to prevent this problem, she doesn't know what to do. Shocking, real beauty but so sad they were not really aware of this holocaust that the world were facing. On how to prevent global warming, steps on how to do it. And most of them don't know their answer.

The lesson here is: So sad to think that most of us doesn't know what is global warming, don't know the causes and the effects of it. How to prevent it. And most of us, we are not concerned about mother earth. Where shall we go, if this mother will say I will quit, and it is too much. Living in this wolrd is really wonderful, so let us be aware and help protecting this place for our next generation.


i cannot find any reason not to post this video of this person who inspires me so great!!! Wow!! fantastic...

When we got mad we used those nasty words that it is so bad to hear. The people around us, especially those ignorant about those words, and hate them. They might think that how worst we are as a person. Those words that really describes the way we are and how do we live our life in this world.

I write this topic just to show how desperate i am with the people who never control their mouth and their fingers to throw those so called "hell words" to somebody, though sometimes it is jokes but the tendency or hurting somebody is really in there. I guess the discipline is really important for our selves. There were people who just love these words and throw unto you, that my God! I don't like it, and i will never ever liked it!

One of my friend posted some nasty pictures on his page. So terrific to see, I don't know if other young likes it. But for me I hate it...

So now, here is the question-

By doing it with your fingers, and saying it by your mouth. Is it just an expression, or a reflection of your own real image as a person?

- look at the picture upstairs.. is it good?


Here we go again, looking back and evaluating ourselves about the things that we had done. Like my mom she always reminds me of fixing my things in the room and try to be responsible on my own. Well as a young person who were trying to cope up all those responsibilities that I need in life, kinda crazy to think. What is in my mind every time she asked me to fix my shirts and undies in the bath room. ( oh sucks up, i guess i need to wear "shirt today but never tomorrow") So it means wearing a shirt today, but you can never wear it tomorrow, I would love to have that rule in this world. You will gonna throw your stuff after using it. Just to escape of not fixing it, or put it into a proper place.

But things needs to be learned as I have said. The process is hard but if you realized that this is not for the goodness of other people, but for you, then why brag things?

Then i started to realized how my responsibility would affects my life, they way I talked, move, and live my life with a meaning. So then growing up, so many cross roads,side ways and humps. The Internet comes along the way. We all know that Internet is really broad and its coverage was really gigantic. I guess I am Internet addict! FACE BOOK,FRIENDSTER PROFILE, TAGGED,TWITTER,GAMES ONLINE, WOOME,YOUTUBE.... All this were hovering me everyday. When I woke up in the morning my mind will dictate me again, "hey maybe you need to update you blog now,how about your face book? oh my God,the farm. might be it will be rotten." Oh gush? What about my responsibilities?


I know kinda creepy minded, posting this celebrity model, that is know in our industry today. Being the most famous fashion model,highest paid model,and most of all is the goddess of Philippine fashion model industry. Oh, that is awesome and very great to think. Her look is really fantastic, her eyes and the body to boast of.

Where are you ladies?
Well to show her on my blog is good to feel, kinda weird if somebody gonna see and read this topic. But I am proud because I just love her.. that is all!


Silence doesn't always mean yes,
it may also mean "no" but
it is better left unsaid.

Anger doesn't always mean hatred,
it could just be mean coping.

Laughter deosn't always mean happiness,
sometimes it is just a mask.

Tears doesn't always mean sorrow,
it also be an outlet of joy.

Staying away doesn't always mean it is the end,
it may also the best beginning.

Though life is so complicated,
it is always beautiful....

So share it with happiness and make the best out of it...


Admittedly once you are excited to one thing that you really shouting for, you will do things just to get it. You will be willing to sacrifice things, especially your studies. And most of the time you are willing to pursue it in order to get what your heart shouting for.

So now here is the thing-

You dreamed to join a competition, and that competition is really precious to you. You always put in your mind that one day you will be there and the world will know you. That you are good enough and you can make it to the top. It is like ( AMERICAN IDOL).. So until you grow up and grow up, you instilled in your mind that you will be there one day. And you do all the effort to make your self ready for that competition. If it is ( AMERICAN IDOL) you always practice singing, belting and showing your singing prowess to people, you join singing contest,to make it that your confidence is boosting up, so that one day it will gonna be easy for you to faced millions of crowd that will be watching you performing. It is a great preparation huh..

Then the time comes, the audition for ( AMERICAN IDOL) is coming into your place, and since that is your dreamed competition you go and try your luck. You are crazily excited! Whoah, things will gonna be coming true this day. ( i'm goin' to HOLLYWOOD)... Then so awesome you were accepted because you got a wonderful soully voice. So that goes, you reached the place of Tinseltown. The magnificent Hollywood. You are pretty excited, you will be facing those judges that will determine if you will be the next American idol. The horrible SIMON COWELL and the rest. Whoah, mixed emotions.

So the time comes, that you will be performing live and they will determined if you can go to the next week. Your performance is good, the judges said it is okay. And you are happy for that great comment, but SIMON COWELL said it is a "HORRIBLE PERFORMANCE, AND HE DON'T THINK YOU CAN STILL GO TO THE NEXT WEEK PERFORMANCE". Oh, you are sad, but you keep the determination firing so that you will be cool and think positive. All contestants done performing, and you notice that you are the only one who got a negative comment. (oh, what are you thinking right now? is it the end of your journey?)

And so that goes, the judgement day. You look unto the mirror and breath. The perception still in tacked and you know, you won't be voted out. hmmmmmmmmmmm... The names had called and only the 3 of you remaining, gush, your heart is telling you ( i guess this is the end, keep repeating) So the name of your co contestant was IN! And only 2 of you remaining. You are still relaxed and calm. You will be in, that is what is in your mind.

When suddenly, you are not the one who called to continue for the next week performance. All of your dreams seems fled away. And you felt so bad, you wanna shout and cry so loud! As long as you can... You wanna kill your self. Your dreamed! You are shouting for this, and there is no chance of going back.

How can you dealt with it:

every night?
every week?
and your emotions?
your dream?

P/S: What shall you gonna do?


We always shared our laughter's, our tears and especially our dreams. That someday our life will be wonderful and our ultimate dream will be coming true. All those wonderful memories is really pretty good to remember. She is sexy and savvy beautiful lady, who loves adventure. Her life style is some kinda hard to understand. Today she got a new job, but tomorrow she lost it.

( oh, i don't know what did you do with your job jay?)

Her aggressiveness when it comes in adventure is really astonishing. She climbed the Mt. APO for 3 times, she slept there during the rainy season. She use to play such hard games , that is intended for men alone. Like Frisbee,mountain climbing. And many more!

But this gorgeous girl remains gorgeous as always. I might be crazy, i remember the time when we go out together, and she left me at the cafe, because her friends invited her to go for ( inuman) beer party. Well I just allow her to go, but promising that she will be coming back for me, I guess it would be impossible. But she did, she return. So what happen was, when she entered to the cafe, where I am located she met one guy that is also drunk. And the guy grab her bag so damn bad, mash her 2 bulging mountain. (hehehe)... I guess the big fight is coming to town! What she did was, she slapped the face of the guy and spit on it. Wow! how brave is my girl! Then leave the man so damn crawling on the cubicle. When she arrived at my side she grab the chair and sit down, telling me she hit the drunken master outside the cafe. Wheew! My God. Then she just told me to make it fast, because we have to go.. Then I just follow her.

But my mind still strolling and asking question about the big man, how did she made it slept out side the cafe!!! hhhhmmmmmmmmmm......

Well I guess, she just made it well! Congratulations Ranjay!
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