No matter how good am i, on hiding something, what i feel i know it will outburst in times that i never expected it will. Loneliness hovers me, the hardest thing about it is- i don't even know what is the core of it. It just that i felt it this way. Sadness that dig the hole, it makes me weaker and weaker each day, i tried to listen some great positive songs but still my heart is longing for someone, but i don't know who..
I hate goodbyes! i met this person just last week, and we made a decision to brought our friendship into another level.So we decided to be a couple with in that day, it was pretty harsh to know i guess, i mean it was not actually the usual system- knowing each other, then if clicks, that's the time we will have to bring it to another level. But we never do it that way..
So we meet daily, every night we used to met on our house, had a conversation and tryin' to planned everything about us and how our relationship would flow. That person is studying, busy as usual, but never failed to texted me about everything that was goin on his life. So i was stunned with the improvements of our relationship. Every night, i have to wait, because that person is eager to go to my house and talked to me. It was pretty awesome experienced.
So the examination week happened- that person became so busy and we decided not to meet two days before the exam, so that, that person will focus on the exam.
Oblivion really happened so fast- that person fades away- like a morning mist, it's gone.. Goodbye is not easy, but i am glad that, that person did it as early as now, for me not to got hurt so damn. It's bad to know, that there were people who wanted to have relationship, trying to explore what it feels like. I was the specimen- so i became a victim. So sad..
Lesson to learned: Do not dwell on best words that bewitched you, it might be decoy- and it will make you cry.. Tim is a member of SMP..