Centuries and centuries will come, the word  SORRY  will still exist. The evolution will happen again again, but this word will never ever changed. Its meaning and how it should be used. I can say it is a sacred word for human being who wants peace and love.

Sorry means apology. Apology means saying sincerely and accepting your faults, that you made a mistake. Many people said that saying sorry is the hardest thing to do. You need to cut or curl your pride and know the differences. For my self, i know this is hard sometimes, would be hard if i am the one  who was oppressed. To rich people it is hard because they have money, and they have lots of friends. So once they hurt you, it is okay and just left you without saying sorry. So it means, money matters. To a lawyer, saying sorry means you are a quitter. It is better to lose in a court than to say sorry.

My pride sometimes kills me and lead me to graveyard. Its emptiness cover my entire body, i am confused and broken. Another day another fight. I got hurt and hurts people too. My mind says it is unfair for me if i will let them to that. It is hard to be hurt and being left undone. Embarrassed by somebody or being told as worst person he or she ever met is such an insult. This is the scenario if you are in a mood of anger. Such gruesome to be mad always, it creates another wrinkles and another foe.


So now, i realized, how bad i am.. How terrible is my attitude. I bragged things, fight and fight. At the end, i am a loser. A great loser. The things that i have done to people were all wrong. I just realized these things so cruel. I feel i am with Ampatuan, and joining the forces of hell bitchy human who only wants is to spread their worst odor in this world. I am guilty. I feel so trash. I admit that i made a mistake. I hurt you..

AND I AM SO SORRY FOR THAT... I'M ONLY HUMAN...

For the lasts years ago, i always greet my mom with a kiss and a poem in English. During her birthdays, she always expect that i will be writing a poem for her, that talks about her life in that year. It is just really amazing to think, how happy she was, everytime she reads it. And tears starts to fall. Very bad to see her like that way, but at thesame time, atleast i made such effort to let her feel that i care and love her so much!

But the drama will be having a great twist,  yeah. Since my mom is a beautiful Filipina, i planned to make some tagalog poem. Though it was hard, but i know she will liked it much. Now, you are the first one to read it. Will share it with you, sssshhhh, she reads my blog too.  But for now, she is busy, so you got that chance of reading it first. Here we go....

                                           Tunay na Pag ibig

                                           by: tim

Kasing ganda mo ang bulaklak na pula,

Mga mata mo'y  nag niningning sa ganda;

Sapagkat sa buhay ko, ay ikaw lamang,

ang tunay na nag papaligaya.

Kung sa buhay ko'y papipiliin,

tatanggalin ang kamay sa akin,

alam ko,masakit ispin

makasama ka lamang, aking tiisin.

Ang hangad ko'y, hindi ka luluha,

Sa aking pag ibig hindi ka mag sawa,

Ang isipin mo ako ay masaya,

Pag nakikita, balingkinitan mong ganda.

O, giliw ko, ngayon, sayo ay malayo,

Damdamin ko, ay hindi susuko,

Dahilan ka, dito sa puso,

Pagkat ako lamang ang tunay mong buso.

Lumuluha man, ang mga mata,

Iniwan kita'y, hindi mo makaya,

tinitiis mo, sa lungkot at ginhawa,

Dahil hangad lamang, kinabukasa'y gumanda.

Mga kaway mo'y aking nakikita,

Ang kasabay, ay patak ng luha,

Masakit man, ang ika'y iwanan,

Dahil sa pangarap, ako ay lumisan.

Nasa puso lagi, ang iyonng habilin,

Araw at gabi, Diyos ang tawagin,

Pag hihirap ko'y, ilagay sa damdamin,

Upang sa pagsubok, may lakw kang hampasin.

Itong sulat ko'y mamamaalam na,

Mga habilin mo'y masusunod sana,

Iniisip ko, ngiti mong kay ganda,

Dahil sa akin, ito'y ligaya, sa buhay ko ikaw lamang ang nag iisa.

So this is it. Just tell me, it had been two weeks for me to made this. And i am just so happy, that slowly i know how make it. Thank you for Arvin who inspired me, in writing poem in tagalog way. And for my mom, you know that you are the most precious gem in my life.

Thank you so much for being so patient with me, my attitude and my brags. I am so happy, that you are now happy in life, though sometimes we faced some problems, but i know things will going to be okay. Thank you for your advices and care!

God bless you! And i love you so much!