Yuletide season is on its way, we can feel the softness and the coldness of the air. The breeze that gives us the signal yeah it is Christmas time.

What's your New Years Resolution?

Just listen to this Pinoy na Pinoy Christmas theme sang  by Maria Aragon ofcourse Abs-Cbn made it awesome!


Watch it here!

I thought that only human who can be able to feel the pain of loosing. But I was struck, when I found this video of a cat trying to help and not letting her hubby die. How touching?

Since 1991, the Metropolitan Community Church Philippines has officiated what it calls holy unions of same-sex couples who want sacred sanction of their commitment to their relationship.

Not a different reason from the more common heterosexual church marriages, it would seem. But when same-sex couples were joined in holy union in Baguio City a few days ago, a Catholic bishop said on television that they were “abnormal” and had “mental problems” and that the government should declare same-sex marriages as illegal. 

 

Now the very concepts of “normality” and “legality” are slippery slopes, with shifting definitions depending on who is doing the defining, and they have historically led to some really bad things.

Remember when women were less than normal human beings who were irrational, emotional, and therefore, could not be allowed to vote?

It's been 6 years now when I had decided to move out and have life of my own, to see what's next on this life I have. Buckling up myself was  best decision I've ever come up. To move out is like heaven coming out from the hellish place of scrotum sack where dreams remained undiscovered, where fear acted as the core of my daily skirmish. The shining armor on the house not a home is the boss, lawless violence and unpredictable thing to happen as the days unfold. While learning everything, the tricks, coping with fear and to discover  how it's gonna be like being out there, lurking freely. Nerves not shaking to the fear of being scolded or worst would be spank, slap and be tortured.

Your decisions should be followed, your word feared by everyone in the house not a home. No clamor, no blare, those rants should be kept  unsaid and those raves should be hidden in the closet securely. Looking back on those days, I felt unstable and  anytime soon I would  collapsed on the chair where I am sitting right now

I was mesmerized how creative and brilliant the minds of people who created this event. It never centered just on one sexuality, one chosen belief, one chosen life to live, but it works to lift up every spirit, every sexual preference of a person who exists on this world. The Pink Dot is an event that celebrates the freedom to love.

"Organised by a pool of Singaporean volunteers, Pink Dot campaigns for diversity, inclusiveness, and works to foster understanding for the basic human need to love and be loved, regardless of oneʼs sexual orientation." 

This day, I thanked God for the inner feeling of confidence and courage. Failure might be inevitable,yet His Love for me is way bigger and greater than the universe. My battle is just adorable as the blue sky, fantastic as the view of the sun,wonderful as the morning glory. It blooms from the inside out.

As my journey takes another path, everyday I consider it as especially made, to savor the goodness of it- to continue being good and share the love that gives me reason to survived every day.

Healing the pain, and moving forward is as good as the breakfast with hot dog and egg. As sweet as the scents of brewed coffee.

May you continue loving and caring others. Share the goodness of life and the wonders of being loved.

Once my heart farts I know it would be silly not cry, shedding tears which sometimes leads me to make decision not to fall inlove again. Not to make myself fool off! It's impossible for me not to assume that being inlove is the most wonderful thing in this world. To fathom that having someone making you smile, laugh and cry is just so cool. This is the cycle which our lives as human being evolved. Our daily skirmish in life. My heart was blown away. The feeling of being attached to someone and knowing that your heart is overjoyed with the fact that everything is vital- falling into place. How I wish everything is just like this way.

But the route of life and love isn't the way we tend it must be. It's tricky. A lot of avenues you should stop from rolling over, not to quit but to discern, to stare and to grasp. To find some extra inspiration. It can be this way sometimes. How far the heart suffers from deprivation, from greediness of knowing how shallow and deep the happiness  is.

When I'm in love- I find hot singles  lurking. And if I'm alone, all people i see were sweet and happy couples. Laughing  and PDA. I could also relate this to all of you. Our insatiable craving on love is just inevitable..

Truly LOVE is crazy! Some says it's the sweetest thing. Some says it's unfair- what's the truth anyway?

Love is an act  of showing  your affection to someone who is dear with in your heart. It's complicated. It's rude and selfish sometimes. But it'll gonna make you stay alive. It gives you more reason to love and live. Because loving is a way of life.

Kadayawan sa Davao 2010, happened successfully. A magnificent celebration of unity and harvest  of davaoenos, from flowers to fruits. Truly Davao remains number one when we talked about celebration. The famous "indak indak sa kadalanan" was one of the most craving to watch for, unlike other street dancing competitions, indak indak talked about Unity, Courage, and Love for our city. It is not only a celebration of bounty harvests, but a chance also to know  the heritage,cultures and tribes that Davao city boasts.

Tourists,locals and even celebrities joined to feel the presence of  this livable city in Asia, millions of people from other places came and celebrate.

Another thing was "Hiyas ng Kadayawan" unlike other beauty pageants, Hiyas showcases talents and beauty from the ten tribes that Davao has, from Ata, Maranao,Maguindano,Kagan,Tausug, to  Ovu Manuvo, the ladies will represent their tribes and how they lived, and their beliefs. For this years' hiyas Ata tribe won, Bernadette 21,  who only measures 4'11 in height and a not typical beauty queen look alike, she represents her tribe with love and passion in preserving it. She bagged the crown as "Hiyas ng Kadayawan 2010"  and a major award given by Smart Telecom, she never really expects that she will make it, but one thing for sure her answer led her in triumph. during the pageant she was asked  "in her own opinion, will she win the crown tonight"  truly sometimes huge voice comes from the shortest ones, then she said " YES, i will definitely win to night, because i carry the  authenticity and my love and passion for my tribe,  in preserving it, no mix blood, this is the real face of Ata tribe ."  I never expected that she will made it or even to reach the top 5, or to get major awards, but she got so lucky!

Once again, Davao City marked a great celebration, that people should look up to, it was held peacefully! Happy kadayawan sa Davao...........

I just love the song that says, " earthquakes can't shake us, cyclones can't break us, hurricane can't take away our love... " It is the spirit that lead us into that conclusion, glancing back on our failures would really never helped us to attain our goals in life. It is always perseverance would matter in the game of life. Stories of survival that we can learned from, and also we can apply it on our own.

Her stunning beauty and intelligence just really spectacular, fighting for her right and to be justified is an amazing act to follow. Tall, gorgeous and intelligent. I am talking about   "Maria Venus Raj" our strong contestant for Miss Universe 2010. Once dreamed to be a beauty queen, achieved it but suddenly taken from her, but in her pursuit for justice by dethroning her, she claimed it, because she knows she deserved to be. She deserved to represent our country in this most prestigious beauty pageant. All eyes were on her, sexy body that takes the tape 35,22,35 a body of an endearing Filipina. A beauty that represents courage, confidence, persevered woman of today. She is the perfect representation of woman who we're abused and down graded by community.

She bagged the title as "Binibining Pilipinas Universe 2010" which i knew she will have it. It was one of her dreamed to win the title, the "Bicolana" beauty who lives simple life in the middle of a rice field, her runway was a narrow path, that you will never thought it was, because of her perfect move,poise and pose. Her perseverance in life was just amazing,  to achieved her goals and dreams in life. to make something better, and to taste the sweetness of being able to buy what you want, and being satisfied with what you need.

Dethroned and somehow robbed the crown from her, the issue was "inconsistency of her documents" teary eyed lass, was fighting for her crown but the main reason was she is fighting for her right. Venus is a half filipina and Arabian, her dad was from Qatar where she was born, with this inconsistency that BPCI was trying to tell us, was really shallow. BPCI told Venus to sign the resignation letter, or she will be dethroned. It was painful for her to know the fact that she will be doing the things which she never deserved to be.

Inconsistency of her birth credentials was a big challenge for Venus, crying for help and thanked God a lot of people sympathized, and help her to claim her crown. Her confidence to claimed it was another thing. Media we're  feasting the issue about her dethronement, on how will she claimed it again.

Wait for the next page to come...

"sometimes competition doesn't really challenge us, it only lead into depression if we can't get what we wanted to have"

i can't make  poems anymore
my hands stops from typing
every track resounds back and forth
your glimpse has gone....


somebody owns you now my heart is in pain
impossible to touched you again
my plans shrink, can no longer roll
too late it may consider,and tears wrapped all over


i wanted to get you from that refuge
to let you know, how i feel
praying to have you not in vain
but "amour" you are in frame


i am conqueror, at heart i am fool
knight and able bodied spirit
places and realm i am brave
seiging your heart leave me undone

"amour" may that refuge will last
guiding you till at last
i hope, forever his love remains
gratified to see you in framed, even i am in vain....

"vous serez toujours mon amour dame"

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will
when the road your trudging seems all up hill....

when funds are low, and debts are high
and you want to smile, but you have to sigh....

when care is pressing you, down a bit
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.....

life queer with its twists and turns
as everyone of us sometimes learns....

and many failures turns about
when he might have won had he stuck it out....

don't give up though the pace seems slow
you may succeed with another blow......

success is failure turned  inside out
the silver tint of the  clouds of doubt.....

and you never can tell how close you are
it maybe near when it seems so far:

so stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when  things seem  worst that you must not quit....

How many times i have told you,
how many times do i need to say this;
"love  is greater than anything to have,"
it is wonderfully made by God for human...



It is hard to ponder, but lucky to have it,
Mysterious yet it is widely open for public;
Secret but cannot be hidden,
it is  the light of the lost and the life of humanity.....

How long will you persecute me?
How long will you say " i am not good";
How long will  you say "love hurts",

Truly i never harmed you nor to anybody.......

I have given you mind and heart to choose,
I never tried to hurt but to make you happy;
Dreaming of making you the happiest one in this world,
but  because of me, your life ruined...

Now you are blaming me,
Blaming of the mistakes that i didn't do;
Creeping, crawling, struggling to survived,
I don't want to call my self "guilty"........

But when i see you crying,
It always led into that conclusion;
I am  "LOVE"  can't take hurting "you"
I am sincere and loving.....

i wish you we're here.. 
holding my hands, touching your lips..
celebrating the moments that we dreamed of..
making the best out of it...




trees are swaying in gladness..
oceans' hands were bouncing...
the blue carpet shines...
the spirit of love reigns...


strolling in this wide open space
with an open hand,looking up to the stars....
wishing to see your face...

tapping your smooth and tiny fingers...


i wish you we're here....
sitting beside me, keeping you safe
dreaming together, to love and to live..
take care, where ever you are......

Gem, it might be hard for us,  that this day, you are going to  leave. We as your friends were really in an emotional stage, trying to stop you from leaving, but the time says you have to, and we can do nothing about it. We shared together every happiness, tears and also the achievements that we have. It was a wonderful chance to shared it with you, your great ideas and your motivation to make as the best as we can be. Your great sense humor, that even in times that we thought we cannot do it, you always show that there is always a way, and thanks God we made it.

Your kindness will always be as sweet as chocolates, this will never fades in our heart and mind. Caring and loving. I thanked you for being a good friend to me, even though i sometimes had this stupid attitude,  but you remained my friend. I still remember the time, when i was sick and nobody cares about what happen to me, but you did. Showing me the essence of being a friend, and what friendship means. I am lucky that we've met.

Now that you are leaving, this might be one of the hardest part of our friendship, yes we still have the communication "i know about it" but it can never fills the feeling of longing, during the days that we had. I know it won't be easy for you to go, likewise too us. Truly friendship is the best thing to have in this world. It can never be bartered into money nor to any treasures to have in this wolrd. It is one of the few that GOD gave for us human to enjoy. The affection and the happiness that friendship brought us, it is awesome.

"Friendship is an epitome of God's loving kindness and faithfullness for us"

Thank you for the gift of friendship that you brought into our lives gem. You are truly a precious gem for us...

God Bless You in your new journey........

An elite, a man with one word, a strong foundation to be called. A mirror of youth. An inspirations of young men..And that is our father, their undying love and care for us. Their strength to protect us from danger.

Having a father , is the most amazing gift to have in this world. The person who will protect and care for you. They never tolerate any bad deeds that we have, but they also cannot resist on watching us striving, with their mighty hands, we are safe.

A strong but vulnerable at heart. Your thought is very deep, your direction never failed. Truly you are the man of valor. A man which my heavenly father gave to me. How lucky i am having you. Regardless of what i have done wrong, you are still the one that i knew before, your eyes that speaks love and your gestures that showed care, a man of principles.

Pang, i love you so much. I thanked God for having you.

Happy father's Day!

I  posted this kind of topic way back, telling you how awesome girls are. Gorgeous,sweet,sentimental,caring and loving. I was just stunned with so many ladies kept on passing by, everytime i walked, go to mall, in job, in television, internet and everywhere in this world.  Even in a dream they still conquer  and reign. Truly girls are exceptional...

Stunning with your brown eyes, your shiny hair, nice red lips, wearing your expensive channel all i can say i wish i can have you. You passed by and don't even care,that i am here staring  the way you move. Your vulnerability wrapped up the place. Your smile is like heaven's taste,beef steak,balbacua or an adobo one, yummy and delicious.

I wish to eat you everyday, to have you all day, to keep you safe  with my wings, acting like i am your protector. I am your light and shining armor. You are my Cleopatra and i will be your lord. I will served you like i am your servant. I will wipe your tears, and i will make you happy.

Saving you in my memory is the only way i can do. Your smile will always be the best smile for me. You might be petite but You are gorgeous and that justifies everything. I like you, but it seems i can do nothing to tell you, how i feel. I wanted to have you, to keep you as i said, but fear control me everytime i see you.

Your vulnerability seems registered in my memory. I can still hear your cackle. Your cute yellow dress, matching with this silver shoes that makes you a goddess of all goddesses.. But i know this is just a dream.
I just taste the sky, and feel that i am alive again staring your face. I swear i won't forget you, if only my voice could reach forth to the future, if i can still see you then it would be my happiest moment to share with you!

I don't know what this is, but all i can say: I like you just the way you are...

I love you mom!
Simply you are the best...
Thank you for giving light...
Thank you for showing your deepest love for me..
I might stumble and fall,
but your love is forever genuine..

I  am sorry for yelling at you,
everytime you wake me up to eat my breakfast..
I am sorry for letting you to wash my undies,
I am sorry for lying, hiding some stuff which  you supposed to know..
I am sorry for not helping you preparing food.

Beyond those bizarre attitudes that i have.
You are the still the mother that i have.
The light of this family,
The soft spoken woman, with care and love I am satisfied...

I may lost everything in this world,
But one thing for sure.
You will always be a mom of peace and courage...
A mom of love and care...
And most of all, a mom that God  have given to me..

Truly you are exceptional!

A friend to lean on, a mother to confides in, a sister to cry on, and most of all a true peer to treasure of. Four years ago, as we remember it was a gruesome time of my life, a challenge which quaked my faith, too hard to move on, just even to try to step my foot on the ground. I am wasted and tired. Noted that i was in pain.

It always reminds me what  "true friends" really means. And how does this friendship that we have, affects my life. We have been through a lot of pain, struggle and challenges that shaked our friendship but we surpassed, and still standing very strong. And we all know that it will be forever. We shared moments which people find it really weird, i guess they're just intimidated about us. The friendship that i found in  you is really sparkling like a gold, and shines like a sun in heaven.

Being your friend is the most amazing thing to have in this world, finding true friend in this world is hard to have, but lucky enough that i found you, atleast i can boast that you are exceptional. Telling me that " you are not doing these huge stuff for people,but for God". Wow, really great! An amazing love for people, love for this world, music, and for God. Encouraging me, if i am indespair and in vain, telling me the world is still a wonderful place to live, that things will going to be okay. I cannot find any better than you!

When i lose my hope, and crying for help, you are there to guide and show me the brighter side of life. Just this afternoon, i told you that i am facing some problems now, and i don't know how to solved this, but you told me good things to happen and everything has a reason. You are my mom and dad, a parents which children really wishing for, a dynamic woman of tomorrow!

All i can say " thank you so much, for the friendship that i found". Thank you for helping me everytime i am down, and showing me the good part of those bad things that happens to me, i just wonder why you are so optimistic in life. Thank you for those great memories that we shared together, the laughters and tears! We will always keep this vow that we have together! Swear to God..


WE WILL NEVER LEAVE EACH OTHER..

Why can't we just make it real?
Why do we need to wait, if we know we can have it now..

A little reason to live, but millions of crack ways we need to face.
Life is great? how come i am in vain?

If  life is fair, why i need to shed tears?
Can't you just fill me with love?
Why do i need to wait, what if i will just find it alone?
For me to happy and not to be sad.


Hard to be alone, tears kept falling..
Hard to face this life, if i don't have you..
A creepy minded one,believes that you will come back..
What if  you will not?

Do i need to wait?
I am here, in this dark side
The flickering lights of the street, reminds me of you..
The scent of the night is alluring.
But that remains useless, if i don't have you.

I guess I am fool, a damn fool.
Holding this memories, that soon will fades away.
I will asked you, "will you go back and see me?"
I didn't able to know the whole reason.
A lots of why's and what's...

This ain't not a love song lyrics..
But you know, the message of it, hits you heart...
I wanna be with you, miles away..
Spending the night,thinking of you..
Fragile,hopeless and broken...

My dear, how long do i need to wait?

You have the freedom to speak, a chance to shout what you feel inside. You have the right to accused me, regardless of what i feel and think. Setting apart is not the easiest way  in every relationship. Forgetting all those promises that we made. Moving on, to another horizon and finding love again. All people believed that we cannot find love, instead, if we have the patience to wait then it will come.

But one thing would be, you can never say that my love for you, fades like a morning mist. We are not counting any reasons why our love never last. As we all know, love is not the question, it's the commitment and the situation that somehow we cannot managed. Watching your eyes with tears, makes me uncomfortable. I felt like am  great burden that you are carrying. It was a roller coaster love. I know, you got hurt. You can call me liar. But i know i am not. Leaving you is not a negative thing, but another chance to meet new one, a person that would love you, and i know would fill what's empty. I am sorry.

This must be one of the hardest decision that i made, to put to an end. We are building  a great foundation, but forgot to find the best material for it.  We  built it with passion, but we never noticed ourselves pushing it through, just to see the outcome. We let our emotions managed and hover our minds. We cannot sew back the broken stitches. Instead, we can find great weave, to create a wonderful muumuu. I know, everyday you hark back, those twinkle times that we shared together.

You can call me stupid guy, if that would  at ease you. I have to go, not because i don't need you anymore. But i have to go, for a great reason, for you to have the real one, you can call me spurious. If it will help you to release the pain inside. Get mad! I will accept it.You are smart and i know, in the end, when you have that person, i am talking you will just understand the whole story. We don't don't need to turn it to the next page, when we never understand the previous.

For now, all i can say " we need to move on" and let the journey takes us to where it ends. Hope, you will be happy soon. If i messed up your life,   and if i just made you cry please forgive me. I am sorry for everything that i have done wrong. I'm only human.