Some says, Justine Beiber is a  huge arrogant gal, stupid and strict. But his music topped everytime he releases new single..  And guys look at these people who gone so wild and crazy, when the ticket booth refused to gave them tickets-


What's your verdict with this?

I was hesitant to have my own domain, first thing is it's a dollarous  matter. And to maintain and sustain it forever could become a liability for me. A friend suggested that, I should have my own personal domain so I would maximized the track that I would be getting from the advertisements that would soon hop my blog.

So here we go, I have my own personal domain! At first, I was afraid I am not techie enough to fix and set it up. But thanks to the video tutorials in Youtube.com who held their knowledge about it. To Hengfu  who gave his full support (lol) for setting up this blog..

To all of my fellow bloggers, here I come.. A new domain. a new issues and a new stupidity.. lol

Now that the Binibining Pilipinas phenomenon had happen, the mania has already subsided. Some mourned, shed tears, and bashed  the newest winner which they believed their favorites were robbed and that they should have won the coveted titles. It's just too hard to ponder how fans really support their candidates in terms of cheering, they even spent money to vote thousands of times just to let their candidates won. And their love and passion for pageants is as hard as the rocks in canyon park. Well given the fact we Filipinos loved it.

                                                   the beautiful MJ

This day, I thanked God for the inner feeling of confidence and courage. Failure might be inevitable,yet His Love for me is way bigger and greater than the universe. My battle is just adorable as the blue sky, fantastic as the view of the sun,wonderful as the morning glory. It blooms from the inside out.

As my journey takes another path, everyday I consider it as especially made, to savor the goodness of it- to continue being good and share the love that gives me reason to survived every day.

Healing the pain, and moving forward is as good as the breakfast with hot dog and egg. As sweet as the scents of brewed coffee.

May you continue loving and caring others. Share the goodness of life and the wonders of being loved.

Well, how does it feel to be loved, and how does it feel to find your self being cared off?    It's a sweetest thing somehow. Love is just freaking crazy and hilarious sometimes. It'll take you from normal to above normal.   

A bit confused?

Watch this !

Pilipinas Got Talent once again  look for another home grown talents which would definitely be a hit in this country. For the past PGT contestants we have seen various of talented Pinoys  who made it to the top 36, then the rigid training and the hurting elimination is just undoubtedly hard for a contestant who wanted to achieved their dreams. Alongside Jovit Baldebino last years'  big winner, whose voice is just incredibly awesome, singing like a pro. Davaenos as well performed, and kudos to Ezra Band who has chart topping single ".Walang Iba" which plummet from top 10 to 3.

Truly Davaenos is one of the toughest contender to beat. Well it's proven anyway. PGT once again siege Davao and looking for another big thing. And definitely they got it.

Skeights  the only Emo band in Davao City would probably a hit to our country once they will make it to the top 36. And Emo thing on PGt hasn't been given a chance to play live on TV. And This band was a veteran on singing emo songs which is also a hit to young avid follower of Owl City  Paramore etc.  They can sing Alternatives as well like  The Script which was shown on their PGT audition. The voice quality is is just so cool. No horrendous annoying sound that can break your ear drums- really amazing!

So guys here are  the videos.





 Thanks buddies....

You were raising a kid in a different way. And those words you thrown to him either makes him or destroys him. You threw horrendous words which affects his life terribly. You told him he is ugly fag. You told him he is not good on many ways. You told him he wasn't the best choice at all. He is a cursed of the family.

Now this boy grew up and view this world "cruel". He became abrasive and impulsive. He wasn't a robber but was being robbed. From happiness and love. He looks for love. He wished to be loved. And dreamt of being care for. Those sweet caress he has been envisioning to have, is inevitable.

He stares on beyond with tears, with hopelessness and fear. He suffers from a condition which he doesn't even know how to cope with. He wasn't even aware he was his self. He became rude on love,on reaching his dreams. But remain nothing but a wasted stuff. Depression is hovering over his whole life. A poor kid who wanted to make it in life doesn't have the chance to make it.

He is strolling with a dangling hands, and a tired feet. Tears falling. Asking where he would go?

Checking my facebook when i found these nice art from a friend. I am sure she just copy and paste it- a copy paster.. Hehehehehe.. I just wanna share it here.

When most of the time we tried to hide our faults we turned it this way.

Honestly- way back Nov. 2009 this was happened to me. I thought my world will end. I am that egg right at the back. How painful was that huh?

If  they can only say something.. You already know what it means..

This is really funny isn't it?

I could really relate on MJ song that says : what have you done to the world? It's an earth song. And it's one of the most expensive music video man ever produce in the music scene.It's smooth way of saying how drastic human being abused nature. I could think it this way.  I don't know how am I supposed to feel right now- it's a mixed emotions. Things we're flashings back and forth. Everything is just really blur in sight, I could not grasp the idea of letting it out from my battleground. Instead- it digs deeper. Crawling inside me like a worm trying to hide it's skin from the ray of sun.  I don't know if i am thinking shallow, or I just missed someone. Stress Stress Stress...

I messed up on the first glanced. I could no longer see my self as a human being who strives to make it in this world.  The Pain that i am baring right now is just overflowing. It's strife made me weaker each day. Those slashes brings me nearer to extinction. As the lullabies lilting on my ear- i felt no harmony and serene on it. It always been an annoying and hellish sounds. it carries me through deep depression.  I wasn't allowed to get tired. And see my self down. It will lead me into pit. But am seeing any light along the way. All things we're dim. All road we're growing darker and darker.

It leaves me broken. It leaves me un-fine. I Wanted to think broadly. But my days were numbered, my days were struggling to make it. I am broken. I am tired.

 This is how i feel..

Broken as this..

It's been a buzz here on blogosphere  about our fellow kababayans Thia Megia making it to the top 15. It's been 2 years since Fil-Am contestant graced the stage of American Idol. And it was also been a long time since Jasmine Trias made it til top 3 of the said Singing competition. It was a tough job for Thia- she had been waiting for this chance to audition, and she was lucky enough to get in.


On the other hand, American Idol had just adjust their age limit from 16 down to 15. So Thia grabbed the opportunity and there was no surprised she made it. This tiny lady if given a chance to choose great song could easily penitrate til top 5. I hope so. Crossing finger for her journey to  Hollywood.

Steven said, "Sometimes a person's pitch can be so perfect, it doesn't matter what song they sing, and you just did that. I can't believe you're 15.

Jennifer added, "It was just so beautiful, it was a quiet moment in the middle of all these very big performances to come out there, stand still, sing with no music in the beginning and just captivate every single person in this room was really really special."

And Randy closed it with a jaw dropping words- A comparison of the late Michael Jackson.

Here are some of her videos...







Enjoy guys...

I am waiting in this borrowed time,
Wishing you will come;
The heart is pounding in pain and pressure,
You might leave and stay away...


What if I have to move on,
Taking chance on going away;
Empty heart and empty spaces beyond,
Foot prints of my heart's undone...

It's a living sacrifice to love-
Shedding tears and crying out;
For hear from you and see the smile,
My tons of tears run dry...

I am inlove a far cry from,
the "Karma"  from all I've done;
Bunch is more to come,
To test my faith on staying long...

I made this poem to show how i feel right now. How my heart pumps and giving love to someone who deserved not. But my heart beats fast and it's for him. I'm in pain. I'm tired. Yet my heart commands me to love him, whether he will spare me with love or not. It hurts. May this poem will kick my ass and slap my face..

Once my heart farts I know it would be silly not cry, shedding tears which sometimes leads me to make decision not to fall inlove again. Not to make myself fool off! It's impossible for me not to assume that being inlove is the most wonderful thing in this world. To fathom that having someone making you smile, laugh and cry is just so cool. This is the cycle which our lives as human being evolved. Our daily skirmish in life. My heart was blown away. The feeling of being attached to someone and knowing that your heart is overjoyed with the fact that everything is vital- falling into place. How I wish everything is just like this way.

But the route of life and love isn't the way we tend it must be. It's tricky. A lot of avenues you should stop from rolling over, not to quit but to discern, to stare and to grasp. To find some extra inspiration. It can be this way sometimes. How far the heart suffers from deprivation, from greediness of knowing how shallow and deep the happiness  is.

When I'm in love- I find hot singles  lurking. And if I'm alone, all people i see were sweet and happy couples. Laughing  and PDA. I could also relate this to all of you. Our insatiable craving on love is just inevitable..

Truly LOVE is crazy! Some says it's the sweetest thing. Some says it's unfair- what's the truth anyway?

Love is an act  of showing  your affection to someone who is dear with in your heart. It's complicated. It's rude and selfish sometimes. But it'll gonna make you stay alive. It gives you more reason to love and live. Because loving is a way of life.

Everybody has a movie favorite isn't it? Or  it is even movies. We love movies like women love clothes, shoes and bags. I personally take chances of getting some free tickets while working on a radio station before. Just you know, get some  free passes. LOL. Yes, i succeeded sometimes. For me, I have some movies which i admire the most. And i know for sure, some of this movies was your favorite as well. I love  life changing movies, adventures and love.

I envisioned my self being the lead role and being on that situation. It's either dealing with a huge snake, battling with a colleagues- (betrayer).

Movie somehow has the power to manipulate our minds, it also has the power to change life. It'll make you cry, mad and  feel excited. It'll lead you into some emotions which you cannot imagine you are in. The illusion itself carries great impact- negative or positive. It depends on the movie you were watching anyway. So here are my lists..

Sanctum : This movie has been posted in here twice as my post. I can't just get over with the fact that this movie is just so adorable. It's a father and a son story- their love for adventure.



The Legend of the Guardians : I love this movie so much! It's 3D. I was mesmerized by the plot.  The family related movie. Though they we're animals but still it's a family oriented one. It's natural in the family we have insecurities or being jealous to our brood. This movie is surely freaking awesome!



The Proposal : I'm a fan of Mr. Ryan Reynolds. He is just adorable. Women screamed. He's Hot!


The Perfect Getaway : Unlike other movies that you can already infer what's next. This one is a mind boggling one. You might think that those aggressive and loud ones where the enemies. But it'll  surprise you. So better watched this movie. Buy a dvd copy  of this. Surely fantastic.



This movie reminds me of how deep is the love of a father to his daughter. That he is willing to die just to save her beloved one. How i wished my Dad could act this way.



I love short movies as well. I will be bored if movie is just long and nonesense. So SIGNS is just a perfect example to those people who loose hope on finding someone to be the person they will share the rest of their lives. Love speaks no words, but it can pull off heavy  rains to fall.



 Okay, it's enough for now. I will update you. More movies that i love will be shared. Thanks Guys.

Truly I still have hang up with this video. I just wanna share this, i know it's already viewed by millions- but it's what i wanted to post. Philippines truly loves pageant! Go Philippines!

What's your plans for Valentines day?

Will you celebrate it at home, cuddling or having sex with your partner- bluntly said. Whoa, it's an awesome celebration anyway! Or you might bring your lover into some cozy places, where you both will enjoy music and shared the nostalgic moment of your lives. Movies, bar, restaurants,adventures- those were things we can do in celebrating Hearts'  Day.

Speaking of  movies, I just watched Sanctum and guess what guys it's  freaking awesome! the story evolved between a father and a son, the things that they never agree on both sides. But there's only one main point, they love adventures. Just that the Frank wanted to discover something greater, an adventure of a lifetime that would brought him into fame and fortune. And Josh thought it's unfair since he wanted to have any other adventure and he doesn't like caving. On this little rift they both never understand each other. Josh thought his dad is a self centered guy, trying to make things well, beyond the fact that he is already old. And Josh can't do things well, negligence is all in the mind of his dad.

The location of the movie is on the beautiful  Papua New Guinea. And there goes the mother of all caves, the Ela Cala- i don't know if i got  the name well. LOL. But it sounds like that though. Millions of years past, since this cave remained unexplored. Until the team of Frank arrived and wanted to conquer this unexplored one. The beauty of the nature,the forest circling it was just so amazing. But you will be more struck to find out how magnificent the cave is. Known as the mother of all caves- the Ela Cala shines like a star but its venom is just terrifying. the team decided to explored the area, somehow they would become Mr. Columbus or Neil Armstrong. Quite amazing plan. Everything is well- when suddenly storm hit the place, some of the team out in the crater we're trying to contact Frank and his team back down there to get out. But seems the journey turns into hell. the radio went off and they cannot traced it back. So until such time- the team heard annoying sound and a heavy water flashing down. They rushed to get back up, but the water hovers the place and a  great stone was being stuck on its way, they forced to go down to find a way to get out and save their lives from the pit.

This is the story of survival. The battle of love and friendship. Of  fortune and fame. The adventure of a lifetime, to get what you dreamt- life of people you loved would be bartered.

A movie to be recommend!

It feels like very day is a whirlwind day,
Everybody mourn, inside and out,
Love seems inevitable in this place;
Death and selfishness we can grasp...

Looking back on the peacefulness i dreamt,
The stillness of the night i wished
The flickering lights of joy has gone
 I can see it no more- but tears...  

Now tears and grudge rampant
Greediness and hunger hovers
Where love is impossible to bear
Sadness and tremor all i can see...

The sun  shines no more
Love sparks no more
Pray is all i can do
Have faith is all believed...

I pray that you will be safe,
I pray that there will be better days to come
I pray that peace will take over
I pray that you will pray.....

Most of my friends here, wondering why i deleted my blog for  HIV/AIDS. I never actually take it away from my life, since it is important. I just find another site to put in there and start building it. So to speak- i need to transfer it.

I want that blog to gain confidence and eagerness to show to the world the battle of people who are facing this world afraid of being noticed and afraid to say a word about their condition. Well, it's pretty normal,since people think that HIV/AIDS is contagious. Uh oh! Shallow thinker does. But we who knows  and to those people who read a lot, they tend to help these peer and uplift them. Great words  we're being given to make them feel comfortable. And I salute those friends who did it.

Since i got new work, and that is "research and monitoring" for DOH here in Davao city.  My main agenda is to help and give awareness to people about HIV/AIDS, how it affects our lives, how vehement is this virus and how terrifying to have this. Admittedly it is terrifying. That's why, the United Nation give millions of dollars to  prevent this epidemia from scattering all over the world. In Davao city alone, the numbers of HIV/AIDS positive reached the maximum percentage which DOH thought won't be. But the awareness itself  is not really active and powerful to make  an eye turn and see. That's even worse than having HIV.

My task is to spread the news, to give education and trainings to men especially gays,bisexuals and homosexuals. I have given free condoms to be given to these types of people. And ofcourse "Encouraging them to get tested." So the battle continues. In preventing HIV/AIDS from spreading, and preventing people who we're  infected from the stigma they we're getting from the society.

For those people who wants to contribute and share their stories and stories or their friends,we are open to  accept it and posts it on  REACTIVISM .Please visit this site and add it on your blog roll.

Thanks for reading!

Tim-

We have so many hang ups in life, we faced a lot of struggles in family, peers and ofcourse our battle against the odd. We thought that life is unfair. And  we become obsessed on being emotional. We become freak. Weird in  outfits, self centered and adopting on hellish words. We are battered by time!

Having this issue is not easy. World treats you as bitch- a person whom nobody loved. It is hard to stay this way. Our lives is just a shit.

We are greedy to find love and to express our feelings, instead of having someone to listen to our clamor, they become odd and dragged us down. In that we become hopeless of finding really love, that optimistic people says it exists. We are battered again and again.

We are strong in outside appearance but terrified inside and beyond. Nowhere to go. I just wanna share this newest Video of Pink about this such kind of life.

Watch and reflect.



Thank you!

Well, i sacrificed my other precious  blog, just to changed it into Reactivism. This new blog will tackle about life of other people, their struggle and their battle against the world. Check the link here. 

I decided to do it that way, since i have lots of friends who inspires me and their story is just uplifting. It can change life, that is if we want their story to sink in and reflect on it. 

This blog will focus of HIV/AIDS campaign. Yes, i am an advocate, but that doesn't mean "I am Positive of this virus".  No i am not. It's been a long time since my friend had this issue. He faces life with gladness, more meaning and living life with the love of God. It's pretty inspiring to know these types of people.

Battling not against the virus, but against the vehement and cruel world. Having HIV is not the biggest problem, and probably not the most embarrassing thing in this world. Who would have thought, you will have this, you never planned to obtain this sort of deadly saliva of death.But they learned from their mistakes and they wanted to live life normal. Not being bash, nor scorned- but being cared and being loved is all what they wish. 

Committing suicide was their final choice! 

I asked my self why.  Does it because they have HIV? Does it because the virus isn't curable? Or does it because they we're maltreated and abused, bashed, scorned to death by people, society who thought that having this is the "most embarrassing" thing in this world. What a mind to think! Everybody tends to made mistakes so we can't judge them and kill them not by gun nor by hitting them, but we killed them by words which is million times venomous than the said virus. 

It's time to wake up. It's time to help them. It's not their fault why the number is plummeting, they never dreamed of wrecking someones' life by engaging into sex and so to speak they spread the virus. they are victims as well. So I encourage you to helped them. Be inspired my their experiences, let them be our mirror. Discipline is what they we're trying to impose here. They are all victim of today's cruelty. From LOVE and POVERTY. Let our eyes wide open to see new things and to have the right view on this issues. 

HIV is not poisonous, it is just thesame as cancer, the only wrong thing about it - is we took it shallowly. We thought that if we have this, life will never be meaningful. It will never be thesame. I bet you are right. Yes it will never be thesame again, "you will be more concern of making your life more colorful, put some meaning on it. And probably you will live life in a clean way." What's the difference with it? Did you see the  positivity .

 It's time to help them. Give them love. And be inspired. So my blog would be open for any contributions. starting from now we will be posting HIV related. Their activities and their lifestyle. 

If you wanted to share your story, we are open to received it and posts it on that blog. Send your story to this email Address : Jiansmithson@ymail.com/ or text me through this mobile number : 09296776922 (smart). Your name will completely be hidden if you wished to.  

Thank you so much! 

A lot of riffraff loves adventure, aren't you? Well, i do a lot. I even dreamed  of traveling the whole world. Explored the most beautiful cities in the world, walking in great wall of China, fishing on south India, swimming in the falls of Venezuela, going to Moscow, to experience the snow and winter Christmas in West coast, whoa too much to do! Adventure is always a dream for everybody who is a wanderlust.

It's a fun thing to do. People who do this saves a lot of bucks, in a year they planned to visit new places and learned their cultures, bring their cameras and take some good photos for memories! What an astounding things!

They lived life one day at a time. If it's time to work then they do, if it's the time to go for an adventure ofcourse they grabbed their bags and see the whole world. Awesome! Have you ever imagined how it's gonna be like to be in Paris? How does it feels like wearing suits on winter season in west coast?  Things really amazing! Going to London is almost a dream for anybody. Quite well, it's one the amazing place to visit.

I watched new movies for 2011, then i found this great movie about adventure, well years back we'd  watched some adventure movies which Western culture does love so much.  Seeing the trailer is really eye popping, the facts, the plot and the cast is just freaking huge! Wow- It'll gonna be seen this February 2011,  Sanctum- the greatest adventure comes from within, you will also learned lesson on this movie. Do not ever give up no matter what happen. From the executive producer James Cameron.

Whoa looking forward for this movie.. For now here's the trailer.