I was thinkin' what would be is my journey again, on the next two  months of this year. Since most of it was a mess, 'twas unproductive in a sense i couldn't gauge what to do, staying in the house was my hobby, reading books, sometimes hopping with friends, write on blog and so on and so for. The routine was kinda annoying for me.

So i started to lean back and figuring out what is the best thing to do, to maximize this two more months of this year. I was thinking of having a vacation, gosh! got no budget for it- why then staying with friends and do a lot of escapades, whoa, that would be hard again- a whole bunch of unproductiveness. The first blast of this year, was really terrific strolling in this big city without anything to do, my job was on and off. Got a lot o offers but it turned out to be nothing. I was making some fun of my self, that i myself couldn't find it well and good to have. Lending money, i never used to it anyway, trying my luck.

Then there goes a  lot of "rakets" but it is not enough for me to live, i got a lot of hang ups again and again. Jesus, what the heck was happening to me.

I was floating on a lake, i was stagnant to be specific. I felt tired of my life, i waste it really bad.

At this moment while writing this post, i am in this room where everything are visible, the alluring freshness of the air makes you feel better, as the hand of the tree moves, it is like a dream which is invincible. Ropes are red, signifies the life of being young and vibrant inside and out. The clouds shine as the ray of the sun hits every area of it. As the darkness slowly coming down, seems it would be another festive moment that every human should share. Every struggle were all worth it, they were all treasured in a box that as i gaze up on it i could reminisce every passages which i stumble and learned from it.

First blast of trials, i messed up. But everything happened for a reason- to make us mature in the battle of life. For every guts and every trick we did there would be corresponding lesson we get from. So we better do positive things, maximize kindness and share the love. Because once these thing will hold up, we cannot get them back and do thesame routine as they did. Every sprout of the morning sun, you have time to think back that "life is worth living".....

We must learn to appreciate the beauty that we have,  find great friends, inspire people and we have to find inspiration as well, on what we do, on every day life. As we struggles, let us always think that it might be tricky to solve, but that is a jargon to make us believed "we exists  in the world of the living"...  That everything in this world would come and go, we cannot stick from the past, nor lean on the present but we should never be afraid for our future. As old ones says "let the future problem itself"...

I summed up with this quotes:

“Anyone who stops learning is old, whether at twenty or eighty. Anyone who keeps learning stays young. The greatest thing in life is to keep your mind young.”

Happy Halloween!

I was asked, what if i will die today, this very hour, will i accept it dear within my heart? I was stunned by this simple yet nerve wracking question. It wasn't good enough to tell someone that "yes" or a "no". It was complicated to say anything regarding with death issues. It gives such thought that i should give my life an importance and love it.

My common friend and also a blogger, faced the reality that her best friend will no longer exists in this world, i know that they were so close, sharing their wonderful moments as friends and treasuring every moments which they loved the most. From writing to any escapades that will come up from their minds they do it. But all of a sudden, just a blink of an eye " he is gone"....

Teary eyes, she told me it was one of the horrible situation for her to accept. A person which understands her so much, is now gone, facing the reality that he never went to any vacation, because it would be forever, she will never see him again. It was a heartbreaking moment and a reality to accept. A friendship that is pure, lots of plans that were planned for a celebration of  their 7th year anniversary.. But the celebration will never happen, nor the celebration would took place next time or any days soon, but there would be no more celebrations in the friendship that is pure..

It was then for all of us a hard situation to faced, a life which is great for us, our beloved people that we treasure the most. We all know the feeling of losing someone that is so dear to us.  I realized that, there were people who lived life so damn bad, not loving life which is the best gift that we received from God. A life which any treasure in this world cannot replaced it. (Sayang na buhay, nawala nang hindi inaasahan) A great life that was gone, somehow  she is looking forward in life, the next page will soon took place..

Lesson to be learned:  To you who are now reading this post, " how did you handle and manage yourself" Do you still have time to make it awesome, not only in the eyes of your crush but in the eyes of God who gave this to you?".. Our selves is the second priority in this world.. Let us take good care of it, because there were those people who loved life but still they lose it, what about you who neglect this treasure which is so adorable to have.

"Life is too short, don't make it shorter..."

Question :

Something about love, but rejected
For you who is alone and undone
Helpless and depressed of something
Thinking life is worthless.......


Something about fulfillment, but failure
Blurry dreams and a blind passion
A dead investment of  love
Compassion finds no room....

Something about family, but broken
United we stand,but broken when we fall
Thirst and hunger take over
For love and care is all been wishing...


The room of  hope and freedom
Until when the suffering lasts
Until when the emptiness reign
For this life that is full of vain........

Answer :

The battle of life is not for great
nor to the strongest  man
the harder the better it would take
the fulfillment of life is happiness....


To you who is rejected in love
Find no room to be loved
To love yourself has a mansion for it
Because to love is to live....


Life is not for people who succeed
Game is not for people who are better
To win in the game is senseless
If you don't have the effort from doing it.......

The battle is for the unqualified
For people who thinks it's impossible
To you who think cannot make it
To me who failed and depressed...

Think to quit not, chance will come
Luck will drop by, and will make you smile
Success will happen all at once
And it will make you a man............

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It was already too late to celebrate the birthday of my Blog. Actually its birthday was july 26, but then i am not in the mood of celebrating it. So i wasn't able to do the plans which i made way back.

At this moment, making this award i was in the middle of trouble, i went home late and the battery of my phone was empty, i don't know what to do, lurking and finding some resting place to let my eyes relaxed. It is actually my fault, because i didn't went home early,so right now, i am really sleepy tired, so i just went to this cafe and trying to think what else can i do, to wait til the morning comes. It is hard to wait actually. Instead of lurking i better stay at one place then surf. Chat, read, listening to music is all i have now, i felt so damned sad, it feels like i am a prisoner, "hows its gonna be like one"..

So guys i want you kknow that i will be giving YOU  an aaward thar i made. It is special, it talks about friendship as you can see. Just copy and paste it on your web page too, or you can also do some posting thingy on this award. It is up to you.

To you

Jag, feil-kun, Arvin, Angels' little secret, ayu, I am Xprosaic, Glentot, Night Crawler, benh, An_ indecent mind, ced, Daij, Maggie, Sendo,  Lion heart, Angie, Donster, Life, love and lust, D,  Jepoy ......

and many more who drop and write their comments on this blog you can copy and paste this on your blog.. thank you so much!!

thank you so much................

Gusto kung bumalik sa kung saan ang buhay ko'y tahimik, na walang gulo, isang taong walan muwang sa kung anu ang tinatawag na socialization. Isang taong ang hangad lamang ay mag kapera at mabuhay ng matiwasay. Walang gulo, inaalala, no insecurities,intimidation at kung anu anu pa man.

Isa akong tao na nangarap mabuhay at mabago ang buhay,tulad ng ibang kabataan na gustong mabago ang tingin sa sarili,mabago ang tingin ng magulang sa isang anak. Na mawala na ang kanilang pag dududa na di ko kayang mabuhay ng magsasarili. Isang buhay na pinapangarap kong tirhan,walang mga masasamang implowensyang sisira sa mga pangarap at buhay ng isang katulad ko. Katiwasayan at payapa and kailangan.

Nag simula akong mag trabaho sa edad na 15, sa edad na to' akoy naging isang "house boy" you might think i lived life with silver spoon or what ever you call it or a definition of rich brat kid. " I AM NOT"

I am the youngest of the two, my mom had previous family before our family started, so we are 3 included her daughter in her first husband. I lived in a remote area which most of us Filipinos lived. Remote, a place of people who has  one goal in life," to live one day at a time" but to understand it deeply, it would definitely explains like this way  " as long as they can eat three times a day life will continue, let the tomorrow problem itself ". A shallow explaination of one's life, an epitome of laziness.

Growing up in the situation where most kids doesn't have plans to go to school, instead waking up in the reality of buckling up yourself to work and work for food and for the family. My father was a graduate of martial arts take note " a deadly black belter"  an example of a strong man who is willing to protect his family from danger, from people who might hurt his loveones.  Well it would be wonderful to think of, it that is the outcome of his profession.

A battered son, flying walls was just normal for me,the annoying sound of a drunken master was always my alarm clock, an alarmed which i dream to stop forever, and will tick and tack! Dreaming of becoming somebody was always in my heart, to change my life and my family is my passion. Unlike other kids i am very observant, outspoken and hard headed, i am willing to fight even though it was my fault. Most of my classmates in school hates me, they don't like the way i act and rule the life that i have. In short i am bitter! A bitter person with a huge dream to achieved in life, a dream that would definitely changed my life.

But to achieved it, it takes time and a huge effort, sacrifices and challenges to tackled and to be faced. As a young kid, many people asked why i am so bitter, arrogant and not easy to be with, i can make the world cry for me to be justified, furthermore i can make thousands of lies to make this world believed i am innocent. And ofcourse as villain i always won the battle. I don't care if i would lose friends, but for me i would lived life according to what i wanted it to be. My life my rules!

Wait for the part 2

How many times i have told you,
how many times do i need to say this;
"love  is greater than anything to have,"
it is wonderfully made by God for human...



It is hard to ponder, but lucky to have it,
Mysterious yet it is widely open for public;
Secret but cannot be hidden,
it is  the light of the lost and the life of humanity.....

How long will you persecute me?
How long will you say " i am not good";
How long will  you say "love hurts",

Truly i never harmed you nor to anybody.......

I have given you mind and heart to choose,
I never tried to hurt but to make you happy;
Dreaming of making you the happiest one in this world,
but  because of me, your life ruined...

Now you are blaming me,
Blaming of the mistakes that i didn't do;
Creeping, crawling, struggling to survived,
I don't want to call my self "guilty"........

But when i see you crying,
It always led into that conclusion;
I am  "LOVE"  can't take hurting "you"
I am sincere and loving.....

I know you are wondering, for the whole two weeks i haven't updated my blog, sending comments and visiting other blogs too. Not because i was lazy or damn, i just faced some great and terrifying obstacles that shook my life all at once.

I was sick for two weeks, having those great swell on my face and body was the most embarrassing moment i had in my life. Forehead,head,neck,face and even my kissable lips was damaged by this holocaust. I got swollen lips that brought me into tears, thinking it won't be okay anymore. Or the scars will remained  forever. I was the afraid of what would be is the outcome of it.

Lack of faith and trust in God makes me weak and tired. I couldn't even  move my feet, not even going to comfort room alone, so i need some assistant to guide me and put me in a throne while pooping. Really hilarious to think! I live with my best friend  Faith, so she was my assistant and my preacher,encouraging me to pray and repent, for that is the only way for me to be healed. I was deaf and numb, thinking it won't help me at all. So the time comes that i need to remove all those milk staying on my wounds, but i got no money to go to the doctor and let it checked or be cured. Holy God!

So it means i need to undergo some practical assistance, removing those messy stuff  that occupies my face, she needs to removed those milk and put this terrible alcohol so that it won't be infected. While she was performing the tasks, she told me not to cry, because Satan would be happy while listening, so every time she removes it, i need to praise God, so that He will be glorified and He will help me. It was a hard task to performed at all. Somebody's pressing your wounds,while you are praising God, and the blood kept on flowing. It was horrible to think.. Thank God everything she said, happens and the miracle of God, really helped me a lot. Those moaning style of praising God ,really help.

Surviving one catastrophe never determined that you already made it, and you win. It was Wednesday last week when i found something that swells on my right and upper leg. It was painful to touched. I checked and asking ate Faith it is swollen, and really hurts. We pray and she told me to repent and let the deliverance of God happens, because it was the fruit of the FORNICATION that i had done in my life. Too much sex! But i am thankful it is not HIV. So i need to face this punishments that God wanted me to learned. It was hard and crappy to move. Moan,pain and struggle to sleep at night was really hard. There was a time that  we need to put some ice just to let the pain stopped. Gruesome experience.

It was Friday dawn, i  need to pee, so i slowly  crawl and slowly open the door so that ate Faith won't be bothered, because i know she was really tired of helping me. Trying to be careful, when i noticed the blood on my right leg, so i shuddered outside the room to washed it, but the time that i stepped my foot out,  great blood spoiled on the way! I wished it was just blood, but when ate Faith smells  the "out of this world" scent that occupied the place,  she vomit. I was then standing on the door trying to be calm, beyond those blood that spoiled plus the odorous scent that messed up the whole thing. I felt pain and tired. It was awkward when that blood scattered in the floor, because the next room would probably be occupied too. And i know they would smell it too.

Tears that kept falling on my eyes was innumerable. Countless flowing of the odorous blood makes me weak. I was afraid, but the true spirit of friendship takes over and we hold on together to pursue and let the challenge be over with out going to the doctor. Everytime she pressed the hole to clean it and get those milk and blood she always tells me to pray. Holding our hands together to overcome the pain was the most fulfilling  scene to be kept. She shared a lot of thoughts she had learned from the Bible and her daily encounter with God. We both pray and we both overcome the challenge that once shook my life.

It was a lesson to be learned, to  put everything in order. And put God first before everything. I didn't go to the doctor to be checked nor i took medicine only prayer and great faith in Him, makes the world brighter than ever.

I guess you would definitely agree with me, if i will say we wanted friends to  to lean on and ofcourse to be with us everytime we needed one. Admittedly I am.

My last 2 posts a while back talked about my friendship with Faith, our struggle to saved this and ofcourse to enjoy the moment everytime we were together. i am 19 and she's 29, but the age never been a great deal for us. We managed it very well, and since she is older than me, she told me lots of things to help me grow up as a young mature guy. And telling me great things about life, opportunities and my faith in God.

A chinita lass, came from a brood of well known people in our  country, but that never reflects on her personality as a person. Though her blood somehow, tells me that we can't still deny the fact that she's still on that edge, but she kept on sayin' to me " sila lang ang meron,wala ako".  Might be when we talked about money and fame, but when we talked about love,care and faith in God she got that all. A true friend of mine. Guys' never been tired of posting something about her, she just deserved it. A true friend, who is willing to share or give if you need it, a pure heart and a strong faith in God, though the world is crazy at this time, but she kept that spirit of optimism, that " things will gonna be okay" that is if we only believed to the power of love.

Finding real friend  is hard to do, it is like digging  those great holes to find a treasure and a bunch of gold. And sometimes we thought that we found that great wealth, assumingly. But when juncture happens, they fled away, and leave us undone. So sad to think that way, but it happens most of the time.  Fake friendship...


Here's the thing: "when you found that true friend, don't waste time to grasp and let them stay. Because once true friend, will always be a true friend".. They're those live angels sent by God for us! So take good care of them..

GOOD LUCK...

I wouldn't find any reason not to talk, I wouldn't find any reason not to continue in this journey of life, and definitely I wouldn't find any reason not to smile. These are just few of those remarkable words that i heard from someone whom i thought would never think about positive things in life.  A hopeless human being.

But it is always wonderful, when you find out, that there are those people who were dragged down and became a victim of tragic happenings, as for yourself it wouldn't be good to smile anymore. Watching them slowly moving forward was one of the best thing to treasure. Just got interested on one person that makes everything still possible, beyond the fact that he is unable. How did he survived, how did he move everyday  facing those fierce eye of community? And how did he consider himself as successful? It is intriguing to know!

As we grow up, we find lot of things that makes us happy, our family,relationships and friends. It can be also in earthly things. Such as ipod,3G phones,laptop,PSP and many more. These are just few of those  incalculable riches that human has. I asked many people about their lives and how they survived from time that they faced some unexpected tragic things that happens  to them. Here are the answers.......

One street kid said: "As long as there are still garbages on the streets i will still laugh out loud".How inspiring, his survival talks about the situation that we have in this nation. One lady states:" I got pregnant but no husband, i tried to stop her life,but when i realized she can make me smile i cried".. We lose our hope and think we are alone, but when we just think, there should always be a reason to smile and we find it. Some says, life is not worth living, i too sometimes said this stupid verdict. When times hit me up and telling me i am worthless un capable, i felt like cocooned by giants and cannot escaped on those trail. But when realization happens, i always coped up and start a new day with a great smile. It is a spirit of survivor, a winner. I hope you too think that way, regardless of what we have been facing. I asked a grade two little girl  about our country. We always know that, at that stage, she can perceive things semi correct.  With her loud voice she told me that, our country is great, people are good, abundant life,  she can't find any better that this country. And because of that, she have the reason to smile everyday.

I was astonished, listening on her soft but very meaningful words. I am old enough to think, if our country is in good hands,and if our country is abundant in everything, that people needs. That remains silent.

I would love to asked you this base on what that little girl had said.

Do we still have the reason to smile?

Three months to go another journey of our Philippine presidentiables will be changed. Another new president will rule this nation, for us countrymen, we hoped and dream that someday this nation will have what we are dreaming for our new generation, that someday they will never suffer all those things that we have been facing right now. A story of determination, and a book of struggle. We have so many stories to tell, watching those ads of these so called "soon to be a ruler of nation" is inspiring. Their words that gives us the reason either to vote or not to vote.

Their promises, is there any truth on it? What about after the election, can they fulfilled their goals? This is just a few questions that me as a person, and as a Filipino have been asking this days. Or we will always just come up into a conclusion, such as "promises is made to broken"!. Do we still have hope, that this nation will bounces back? We will find it out, on the right time. But for now, all the things that we need to  do, is to choose the right person for the position and would be the head of this staggering nation. 

" I AM SORRY"  this is the phrase that we heard when President Gloria Arroyo, fooled us all. With her smile, and strength she overpowered us . We never had a chance, to defeat her,instead she continue ruling this nation, and  with it she exists in a way of proving her worth as a strong president. Some people liked it, but mostly hate her. Now the question is: is this things will still happen again and again? This is a halo of how dirty our politics is. What will happen to our new generations?

Another chance of one person, one dreamer and one aspirant presidentiable who will be given a chance to prove his worth, that there are still reasons for us to celebrate life. There are still reasons, that this nation will be changed. Hope it will happen. Noynoy Aquino, Manny Villar,Gibo Teodoro-  aimed CHANGES.  Promising that they will never stole any treasure that this staggering nation has. Hope it will happen. And hope they meant it!

It would be a change, or another battle. A battle of words or blood. They said that they are the way for us to changed this nation, so be it. But as we all know, "action speaks louder than words"!  Let us find it out. Our eyes are open, and our mouth will never be closed!   We still have the reason to witness what is going on, when this people have achieved their goals, their promises. 

 Let us wait................. And believe that one day it will happen, CHANGE!

Centuries and centuries will come, the word  SORRY  will still exist. The evolution will happen again again, but this word will never ever changed. Its meaning and how it should be used. I can say it is a sacred word for human being who wants peace and love.

Sorry means apology. Apology means saying sincerely and accepting your faults, that you made a mistake. Many people said that saying sorry is the hardest thing to do. You need to cut or curl your pride and know the differences. For my self, i know this is hard sometimes, would be hard if i am the one  who was oppressed. To rich people it is hard because they have money, and they have lots of friends. So once they hurt you, it is okay and just left you without saying sorry. So it means, money matters. To a lawyer, saying sorry means you are a quitter. It is better to lose in a court than to say sorry.

My pride sometimes kills me and lead me to graveyard. Its emptiness cover my entire body, i am confused and broken. Another day another fight. I got hurt and hurts people too. My mind says it is unfair for me if i will let them to that. It is hard to be hurt and being left undone. Embarrassed by somebody or being told as worst person he or she ever met is such an insult. This is the scenario if you are in a mood of anger. Such gruesome to be mad always, it creates another wrinkles and another foe.


So now, i realized, how bad i am.. How terrible is my attitude. I bragged things, fight and fight. At the end, i am a loser. A great loser. The things that i have done to people were all wrong. I just realized these things so cruel. I feel i am with Ampatuan, and joining the forces of hell bitchy human who only wants is to spread their worst odor in this world. I am guilty. I feel so trash. I admit that i made a mistake. I hurt you..

AND I AM SO SORRY FOR THAT... I'M ONLY HUMAN...

As always we think that life is wonderful to live, and everyday we assumed that there can be new things to happen . We are optimistic about everything, in reality and for that we consider it as one of our  asset.  One thing that makes life worth living is " we are still alive" and we appreciate life for waking up every morning with the grace of God.

In my journey as person  there are so many things that happened, I learned to become more mature in life. It is like accepting rule in movies that would possibly changed the viewers opinion about yourself. It is the rule which every actors wished to be given to them. But somehow life is ironic. We tend to exaggerate it more and more. If  we faced challenges in life, we felt that the whole world is making fun of us. And that sucks. We have the ability to think well, and the reason why we have that challenge it is because it is necessary  for us to grow as a person.

I found out that we are so vulnerable, though we always say that we are strong as wall, but deep inside we are weak, we just pretends to be the one. It is a good action, somehow we just never deny that we also feel that we are weak. And that is the reality. So many people hoped that one day soon the will become rich and on that day they would help people who needs it. When they have what they need, or even what they wanted in life, that makes them changed.  So unreal!

Well, i maybe felt so bad about this but it is just that we need to fair enough. We don't need to be like those "botox people" who pretend that they are good samaritan, but at the end they are satans samaritan.  And that is bad.

I was browsing and searching new videos that would uplift my spirit and would makes me damn inspired again, beyond the fact that my last post was kinda disgusting. With those people who were terribly judgemental. That sucks.

But as Arvin said, it is not what they think about me, it is what i think about my self. By the way Arvin is my good friend here in blog. Yeah, and i agree with that. I am very disappointed that time, but now i know i am okay and i feel good to write again. Whenever things going wrong, i believe that it will be okay. And for that i become more optimistic.

I wouldn't stop until i could, and when love takes over i know it will be okay. I cannot blame anybody thinking that way, because i know they have their own verdict and opinion for me. Life is very ironic. When love takes over, things will be okay. To you who tell me that kind of words, it inspires me alot. It make me more submissive to prove to you that i am different. That boost my confidence and perseverance. One day soon, you will realized  that your words cannot affects me at all. To prove to you, i will go back not to take a revenge but to tell you i made it. To all of you, who challenge me, who derailed me, its gonna be a halo of your own image. Telling you this, and encouraging my self to take a great step for me. It is time to make a great decision. And forget you all.  Thank you!

I always think that i am not that good and not really able to make it .And derailing my self. Affected by what other people's verdict  about me. It sucks to feel that way, I never wished to praised but i never dream to be criticized by somebody that i know he never deserves to do so. I kept on thinking that maybe it is just a test of patience and kindness to people, on how will i mingle with others, who got some kinda hilarious attitude.

Yeah, it is good to think that there were someone else who stops you and say that you are not good enough. But i guess it is worst when they say something that would insult you so much. In a sense that they don't like you, or they felt you are just too small to handle. Then why touching me?

Yeah, telling you that you won't grow and you will remain the same as what you are right now. Telling you that " you are poor" would be an insult. Would be worst to think.  I never wished to have your opinion about my life, i am living my life with meaning.  but telling me i am insensitive about what i have been facing, is horrendous. Why don't you focus on yourself, and try to improve such areas of your life that needs attention.

It is damn thing to handle. Yeah, i might be poor, but i am billionaires at heart. I maybe don't have money or millions, but this is one thing i wanted you to know. " you need to know" THE HELL YOU CARE?"


This is my life, and I never ask your opinion for wrecking me up. I am happy, so hope you are.
Ramon, i have one thing to say to you, I never leave with your expectations. So back off!

I know,
You know,
We know,
People know,
God knows.....

It is always great to celebrate another year, another fate and another battle.
2010, would be another battle for us, Filipinos. In challenges, politics, hunger,poverty, another catastrophes, another killings,and  bad exposures. We had been wrapped up so well, last 2009 (too bad) i need to use last, though it's just a day ago.

A battle for us to watch out. Another time for us to shine, another opportunities,  another best and another worst. More surprises and chances of getting better. Another tears, another fear, and another smile. To pursue in this game of life, is the most scarriest thing to do. But facing it, is fulfilling. There is no easy thing to do, all takes an effort, sacrifices, sweat and blood to get it.  But it is amazing to achieve things this year with the sacrifices and knowing that you have it, not because it is easy, but because you work hard for it.

This year, would be exciting for us. For people who have waited for the long time to have a new baby, though there are those people who mourn because of losing someone. But that is the true face of life.

Let us not be weary, nor be dismayed. But be excited because a new day has come. A new  year of celebration, a new year of triumph and success! Let the faith stays inside.

Have faith in God-

WELCOME TO 2010 BLOGGER!

It is always wonderful to reminisced those memories that we have in this year 2009. It was a great fight and a tough competition for us. Challenges and triumph. But the most amazing thing was we succeed and learned from those ways that we had been through.

It is always wonderful to remember those people, who shared smile with us. Those time that we are down, and those time that we won the game, they shared us with joyfullness in their heart. Our love ones, friends, relatives, boyfriend and girl friend, and most important is our God.

We kept the faith, for that is necessary in this life, though we stumble and fall, but  united we stand. Because being a Filipino is a gift, and being alive is a treasure. May this coming year 2010, let us remove all our grudges and say something good to the person that you met everyday. Because life is worth living!

Dry your tears, for 2010 is joyful year for us! God bless us all-

What can you say about your life in this year 2009?

Did your wish was fulfilled?

Are you broken hearted this year?

Did you cursed this year?

Are you ready for the next battle?

This is the question that i wanna share for you all, a story of our survival in this year. Good and bad happened this year, some triumph and some failure. We lost our love ones, but receive another brood. We found new friends and we have new foes. It is a wheel of life. We had been hit, but we survived. We cry but stand after it. We fall but we climb because it is necessary  in life.

Some people failed in realizing their dreams, i hope you are not. Don't worry, there is always sunshine after the rain. Wrath wrapped up this country,  Mr. Ondoy and Mr. Peping, we moan, the pain of losing loveones is like the a wound that no chance to be healed. Tears and blood reunited. So we become more positive in life.

We celebrated the victory of pound for pound king MANNY PACQIAO, Filipino laughed and cry for this victory over Peurto Rican Miguel Cotto. We became excited when our Philippines representative for Miss Universe 09 Pamela Bianca Manalo, was in good timing while competing with other 85 beautiful ladies to win the crown. But we failed when she never made it. Well it is okay. Good news came, most of Filipino artist had been noticed in the international entertainment industry, in the name of CHARICE, who graces the world with her rendition of the world known songs, like "I will always love you, Listen and more." Singing with the big wigs. Yam Laranas, the first ever Filipino who luckily direct his own movie but internationally, he was noticed because of his excellent work. So "the echo" came. Hope, chance will come, Iza Calzado will be noticed. Congratulations to you...

We mourned  when our President Cory Aquino died because of colon cancer, it is bad to remember that Willie Revillame, criticized it- but we already forgive him, but became more proud when she was featured again in Time magazine, this is the 3rd time. Your love and faith helped the world to know that there is God. Thank you!

The people focuses on their own lives and wish that their dreams will be fulfilled. And that is Angel Locsin, when she  was nominated for "best actress" category in International Emmy Awards 09,in her teleserye LOBO { the wolf} though she never get it, but being nominated is already an honor. Congrats Angel.

If Good news happen, i know demons roamed around.  The terrifying MAGUINDANAO MASSACRE,  that made Philippines as the number one most dangerous place for journalist and media. Too awkward to think that even other countries were making us, as their headlines. Yuck! But of course, we condemned it. The gruesome killing that lasted for more than 7 hours was such demonic and satanism to be compared.

Thanks God, the people who did it it, is now facing his debt and i believe he will be punished according to what he did.

This year is good to remember for me, not because i succeed of i failed. but it is because i am happy dealing with everything that happens to me. It helps me to realized that life is wonderful. We face trials but it is a part of our journey towards success. Life is a process! If we only believe, God will bless Us..

THANK YOU 2009, you are so good to us! Hope we are ready next years' battle!

I met so many youth, many friends and people who lived in this world. Happy, vibrant spirit. I asked them about their lives, and about their journey in this world. They said that it is good, some said it is wonderful, they're happy and enjoying everyday of their lives.  That is awesome to know that they are happy.

But it came to a point that, i need to ask about the situation of the earth right now. I am tasked to do it. I am afraid to asked, not because they might be mad at me, but i might be surprised with their own answers and how would that answers affects me so much. Hey, not sentimental at all. But it would be damn thing for me to hear negativity and stupid answers. Infact we already know what is happening to this earth, and we are just fool, blind and deaf to take action, for saving and preventing any catastrophes to come. I am not wrong, it triggers stupidity and numbness in this world.

Some answered that, they care about nature and they are following the rules by not throwing garbage anywhere, it is awesome to know. Youth are now aware.On that survey, we found out that out 100 students, only 10% of them know how to take care about nature and an advocate of Global Warming.
So sad to know the fact that we are now in the middle of chaos, if we cannot reduce the CARBON EMISSION, all of us will DIE.

Where is the LOVE  for the earth now?  Please be aware! It is time to make a step!

Actually, I have been roaming around for the whole week. Somehow in that journey, i found some wonderful lessons about life. I know that life is mysterious lots and lots of people know it is. We even think about what will happen tomorrow or even later after writing this post. This few were includes in all pages that life have prepared for us. Oh, some strange feelings..

I have been living in this world for 19 strong years, with the lessons that i learned is good enough. But somehow to continue this journey i need to know more about  life.  Let's keep on learning buddy!

LOVE is in the air, my friends had been asking me  about the situation of my dear baby, she turned 8 months weeks ago. It is a great experience for me being called "dad" and watching her sleeping with a little cute snore. Wow, this is what we called life. I know when she will be going to school soon it would be another problem for me, the tuition fees,baon of course, her college education what about that. Well it's all in the bag. I am just 18 year old when i receive her as a great gift from God. From then, i never consider my self as young  and teenager. Instead I learned to be matured and be responsible for this gift that i received. Kinda hard, I can't deny the fact that i am too young of having a baby, yet i never blame my self nor her why did she allow it to happen. Because i know this is a gift from Him, I just need to take care of this and make her a good and responsible person in this whole wide world. (See, I am slowly getting older, not on my age huh, its on  experience)..

FRIENDSHIP  is greater than what i think, while i am in the middle of this little journey  i found some amazing things about life. Becky Belo, has her huge and famous tag line "only Belo touches my skin, who touches yours?". I just realized why did she wanted that tag line? Kinda irritating to her competitor huh. what do you think about Calayan? but i learned that in making tag lines, it reflects how would you manage and deal challenges and obstruction that would mold you to become a better person. Having a tag line helps me to become strong in facing the world and the new world with my baby girl. My friends helped me, young and mature. The first time that i heard my baby cryin' at night it was so disappointing, i wanna sleep and let her cry and cry until she will gonna be tired of doing it. But, hey i can't dare it. I grab her and put it on my lap,  and give her milk.  It is amazing thing, the time that i grab her she really cries, annoying and bad to hear. Gosh! but i noticed  her after that she just smile at me and slept. Wow, this is what we called life. Everytime i felt tired and wasted, i think about her smile and how did she makes me responsible. Even my friends noticed this trait that my little ANGEL has. Thanks God for giving me this blessing. It helps me a lot!

Now, when somebody asked me, I never pretend nor lie that i am single anymore. Some disagree and shocked, some of them sends their hugs and kisses to my baby.  In living my daily life, i believe change is happening: in my self, and in my life as a young daddy in town.

This is what we called LIFE!

While a man was polishing his new car,
his 4 year old son pick up stone and scratched
on the side of the car.

The  man took the hands of the child and hit it many times.
Not realizing he was using a wrench.
At the hospital, the child lost all his fingers due to multiple fractures.
When the child saw his father, with painful eyes he asked:

Dad when would be my fingers grow back?
the man was so hurt and speechless!
He went back to his car and hit it many times.
Devastated by his actions, sitting in front of his car
he looked at the scratches the child had written.

I LOVE YOU DAD!

The next day the man suicide..

LESSON:

Anger and Love has no limits
choose the latter to have a beautiful life.
Things are to be used and people are to be loved.
But the problem in today's world is that,
people are used and things are loved.
During this year, let us be careful to keep this thought in MIND  and  HEART!

We know that masturbation is one of the best thing to tackle. Admittedly I myself was executing it.
This topic, it is just a fruit of my stress mind who keeps on telling me why things happen in a way that we sometimes doesn't want it to be. We make things and become a habit, if we cannot control our feeling there are possibilities it will become a huge problem for us to be solved. So this stress mind see the masturbation in a different way. (I am sorry)...

We had a great meeting with my co-producers about our shows and all the stuff, when the doctor came in, we talked seriously about those issues that she will gonna be tackling on her show. And again my stress mind asked her if the masturbation is good for health or not. Well I am still young, so it is just easy to me to tell her about it.

She never felt any awkwardness of telling me that it is not a problem, instead it has a big space and character that is playing in our life. Wow! But i asked her, if  this would affect our daily life if we will always doing it everyday. The beautiful Dr. just said it is not, but it must be with a great control. According to the research  of students including me, your servant, 97% of male age 13 to 25 were masturbating everyday. (single/widower) or even married man do. And 13% of female do masturbation everyday. regardless if she is married of single.

I therefore conclude that masturbation is not a  problem. It will only become problem if masturbation will control you. So that means you lose control of it. Masturbation help released stress, and anxiety. It helps you relax and satisfied, this is safer than sex, from virus and any  diseases that we might get from sexual intercourse.

One thing to learned is, everything is always an asset in life.  It help us to be alive. Control is always the major thing to do.  And don't let anything will control your life. For this would cause problem.