I always think that i am not that good and not really able to make it .And derailing my self. Affected by what other people's verdict  about me. It sucks to feel that way, I never wished to praised but i never dream to be criticized by somebody that i know he never deserves to do so. I kept on thinking that maybe it is just a test of patience and kindness to people, on how will i mingle with others, who got some kinda hilarious attitude.

Yeah, it is good to think that there were someone else who stops you and say that you are not good enough. But i guess it is worst when they say something that would insult you so much. In a sense that they don't like you, or they felt you are just too small to handle. Then why touching me?

Yeah, telling you that you won't grow and you will remain the same as what you are right now. Telling you that " you are poor" would be an insult. Would be worst to think.  I never wished to have your opinion about my life, i am living my life with meaning.  but telling me i am insensitive about what i have been facing, is horrendous. Why don't you focus on yourself, and try to improve such areas of your life that needs attention.

It is damn thing to handle. Yeah, i might be poor, but i am billionaires at heart. I maybe don't have money or millions, but this is one thing i wanted you to know. " you need to know" THE HELL YOU CARE?"


This is my life, and I never ask your opinion for wrecking me up. I am happy, so hope you are.
Ramon, i have one thing to say to you, I never leave with your expectations. So back off!

I think this day was one of the busiest day ever. Doing lots of things, things that bothers me so damn. I think I was so wasted today. Everything gone wrong, my head was tilting. hahai...
When the sun was raising up this morning, the stupid thing happen to me, first when my kuya woke me up and i shout at him, because he wanted me to bought viand for him, but my eyes wanted to sleep still. so he got upset and leave me alone. Well, he cannot even bothered me, or got mad because it's his fault why i shouted him-
Next was this evening, I went to my friends house, then checked him, if he was okay that time, well thanks God, he was okay. in fact he will be hosting one event. He told me to go with him, and be a spinner of the night- then he will be giving money to me. so i agreed to go with him, feeling so good today, i just assume that it would be okay. So bad, we had a problem the disc and everything that we need for our spinning was not yet complete and we need to do it,hahai.. a long process, i helped him to gathered all necessary materials for hosting- so far so good- So the party starts thinking it would be fine at this time- whoah! i am wrong, we ned to fix all song still because it was lacking and the celebrant wanted to add and changed song- terrific! i don't know what to do, the room were so crowded- thanks God, somebody knows how to do it. (the spinning) he helped me to make it through and do it well- by assisting me. At last the party was cool, then i thought we can finish it early- gosh we ned to wait for how many hours to receive our payment! what the heck was going on!!!! So that goes, they pay us, thanks God-
So now i am writing this, the bulshit never got tired of teasing me off, the internet was so slow, i was frustrated again! I don't like it- very slow- i stick minutes to access blogspot- so bad...
I just conclude this day- IS NOT MINE!!