"Realization happens when we already into situation where there is no cracked to sneaked out and escaped from the mess which you don't want to be in."
(The letter of a friend, who confessed he is positive of hiv/aids)
(This post requires deeper analytical thinking. Do not judge, for you not to be judge)
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The very day that I was diagnosed of HIV/AIDS, wasn't the day of my decision to make my life memorable. Yet it was the day to mourn, to cry and shout as if the whole world listens to my clamor, the blare of my mistakes. Which on that day, i wanted to go back on that past and fix the mess, so that i won't have what am i facing at the present.
Horrendous to think it this way, but i was frustrated to know and depressed. Knowing HIV/AIDS is the most horrific virus which dominates in the entire world and kill millions of people in Africa, USA, Europe and even Asia. Added on that nerve wracking fact was " I am positive." I can't consider my self as normal anymore, from the stigma which i would be getting from people whom i know would mocked and scorned somebody who is battling from this illness. Lastly it is not CURABLE.
Yes, Science accepted their defeat from finding effective medicines, and powerful vaccines to stop this epidemia. How am i supposed to think of myself, and where should i position my self and considered that everything is normal. This mind boggling issue hits my life fatally ill. Asking why Science we're lazies! Why Science boasts great inventions in things, gadgets,space shuttles, but the little capsule the tiny vaccines to prevent and cure this terrific virus- they can't do. WTF. Yes, i think as crappy as hell.
(This post requires deeper analytical thinking. Do not judge, for you not to be judge)
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The very day that I was diagnosed of HIV/AIDS, wasn't the day of my decision to make my life memorable. Yet it was the day to mourn, to cry and shout as if the whole world listens to my clamor, the blare of my mistakes. Which on that day, i wanted to go back on that past and fix the mess, so that i won't have what am i facing at the present.
Horrendous to think it this way, but i was frustrated to know and depressed. Knowing HIV/AIDS is the most horrific virus which dominates in the entire world and kill millions of people in Africa, USA, Europe and even Asia. Added on that nerve wracking fact was " I am positive." I can't consider my self as normal anymore, from the stigma which i would be getting from people whom i know would mocked and scorned somebody who is battling from this illness. Lastly it is not CURABLE.
Yes, Science accepted their defeat from finding effective medicines, and powerful vaccines to stop this epidemia. How am i supposed to think of myself, and where should i position my self and considered that everything is normal. This mind boggling issue hits my life fatally ill. Asking why Science we're lazies! Why Science boasts great inventions in things, gadgets,space shuttles, but the little capsule the tiny vaccines to prevent and cure this terrific virus- they can't do. WTF. Yes, i think as crappy as hell.
