Had you ever tried to listen the music which you loved the most, and then left it anywhere, due to numerous tracks we are getting from the music industry. Then suddenly you go back and scan it, then you remember many things from that song, either it was good or bad. Then tears started to fall, or memories of the past reminisced, then it became your habit to listen it again and again.


It was actually pretty normal to feel that way, we are human beings who live in this world full of deceit and surprises.

Do you remember the times that you are broken hearted, and you find nowhere to go, then you decided to stuck yourself in the room, so dark and the crouches kept on running, so were rats (eww).... Just to crack some jokes..

So you are alone, and you have this ipod then you choose a song, then suddenly it made you cry and cry and cry. Gosh! A baby?  Hmmmmm, not anymore.  Well it's usual.

So here is my songs, which i love the most, they help me thinking back the past, whenever i hear them everytime.

As the show started, i was really in a cloud nine thinking how would be this prestigious model search will make us smile and say "congratulations, you're still on the running towards of  becoming " Americas next top model". While choosing our favorite aspirant models who dreamed to be in a glitz and glam of the fashion industry we are so excited to see new faces and an avenger. This is the  one and only show around the world that showcases the ability of  a woman in photo shoots, go sees, runway trainings, and ofcourse  striving to fight to be on top, competing with other 13 girls who dreamed to be a model.

Screening, video recording, and ofcourse the demanding  fall in line just to be in the list, and will later stay in a a luxurious house where ever the producer let them stay. Ofcourse the famous  supermodel who started this famous model search is no other than Tyra Banks. 

Cycle 15 is yet another gigantic  blast for Tyra, as she unfold the biggest and the most influential people in the fashion industry. Matching with the most expensive  magazine "VOGUE ITALIA" or better known as Italian Vogue. Where  lots of supermodels had been featured, it is also a dream come true for a model to be featured in this magazine. So cycle 15 really got a first class treatment! The show opened, and the massive feed backs about new faces and ofcourse the drama in the house was exasperating. This cycle, they live  in an over looking beach house located at Venice beach California. And later as the competition's getting hotter, the contestants got a chance to see the wonderful Italy.

The battle of beauty and high fashion, as a model you should have the chameleon face to interpret the image that the photographer wants you to embody. Ann, 19, from Dallas Texas break the record as she takes great photos, and being the only model who has 5 consistent best photos of the week. This lady is just adorable as a baby, stands 6'2, and probably can break the record of Victoria as the lady with a smallest waist line  in the entire world. With her awkward move and weird personality, you couldn't find any model asset from her.  But she shocked the world with her ability to relate for the theme of the week. And so no doubt she was able to conquer and the break the record. Definitely she is one of my favorite so far in this cycle! And congrats to her, she made it to the top 2.. So here is Chelsey, 23, from Boise Idaho who just turned 23 in the middle of the competition. She had actually experienced modeling, so it was easy for her to compete. She is beautiful blonde girl, who stands 5'10 inches tall. And ofcourse competes well- she just won two challenges including the fashion show with Zac posen, the creation was called (Z spoke).

The two were chosen out of four, (Kyla and Jane) as the two delivered great shots and the personality to  to fit in, in the fashion industry. Just previously  Tyra created a motion photoshoot, which required contestant to pose but in a video. So the stunning girls pose and show their versatility but only two of them made it to the final. And that is Ann and Chelsey.

I am patiently waiting for this 2 gorgeous ladies, who will it be, who will be the next Americas Next Top Model. Will it be Ann- or will it be Chelsey?

                                                                     Ann from Dallas Texas

                                                                Chelsey from Boise Idaho


Let the battle begins!

Depression is allowed to human being- because this is the time that we cried for help, love and care. This is the time where everything never flow into a place where we dream it should be. Time to react on things that we normally not. Time to feel the pain and how terrible it is, hitting the lean right through the bone.  Depression is the ability to look back and reflect - but it is not the avenue where people should stay and still feel the pain though it is already vulgar that it is worth moving on.

In life, we tend to make huge mistakes . Mistakes that deliver the most engaging feeling to find such reflection to see the thwarting  part of it. How horrible it is when we made mistakes and when we faced the consequences, when we find no room for help from friends and even family. Because life required us facing it alone. Taking the battle to the shoulder alone.

All people believe, so am i that there is always a time for every season. Life sometimes sucks, but it is the way life should be, to mold us and to make us great. A lot of people complaining about the loathsome predicament that they have. And as well a lot of people suppressing the emotions though it is no longer good taking it in.

So the ill effect  is horrendous. As most of  the non-fiction writer said " We need to augments our mean and diminish our wants, so the emotion as well ." We have to augments the feeling of being happy, kind and inspired. And diminish the thwarting part of our lives where we stumble and fall. But stand up and let the battle continue. Because- it is YOU at the end will discover, you've lose everything by focusing on your mistake and not  moving forward.

Time is not a river -  it is a pendulum
(Arna Bomteps)

So if you feel down, think of someone who is dead, who will never ever celebrate Chirstmas, who will never ever see how wonderful the morning sun, that when it shines through, it makes you strong. When the breeze touches your skin, it glows. So when you see people smiling, it makes you alive.

Life is something that cannot be barter with anything in this world. Life  is the greatest gift from the creator.

When ever you feel sad, think of those joyful days where you give someone a joke, when you shared your answer to someone who couldn't understand. When you eat with only one bread in the morning, and it feels good when you take it, trying to imagine you are eating a huge fried chicken. Or when you visit a friend, and tell her how much she means to you. When you see your mama crying, when you see your lover excel, when you tried to impress your boss, and it works.

Life is Extraordinary! So let us love it...

I had blogged this video before, how awesome this is. How this song uplifted me, my life and my outlook in life, everything that happens to me. And how to move on. It will tell you good words to continue in life.

Cause someday it's gonna make sense.

                                                    Act like other kids do, but stunning when the camera is on,
                                                               Let's give it up for NOAH....

 

                                                   We just need to hear great words, that would help us
                                                     boost our confidence. So look at the outcome..
                                                     STUNNING LIAM...

                                     If you have time to hop on my other Blog you can find my post
                                      about this lass. Ladies and Gentlemen Hailed the Queen...
                                             Your Honor LEAH ........

It was one lonely afternoon  of all souls day when we decided to have this shoot. Leah just told me to took some simple photos for her, so that she could send it to Illustrado magazine for their data base. As we look at their simple yet stunning photos, we came up doing a lot of poses and  invited Liam and Noah to join. At first i am afraid, hello, take note Leah got this camera, and she already know what to do with it she is professional,  how about me, who is just an aspirant photographer. But nobody would took a photo for her, she first arranged everything then gave it to me. Bang! Bang! Bang! there you go, i got this stunning photos.. It was uncomfortable at first, but as the shoot goes on, i find it amazing.

Then  its Liam's time. Wow, she likes to smile in front of the camera, but i told her i wanted to have this high fashion photo shoot, i told her the techniques and wow, "she nailed it"... So was Noah!

I am happy to see this photos, I am glad that i see my self in a different way. I  also thank Leah for being so patient telling me everything, though i sometimes hit it wrong, but still she gave me her sweetest smile. "Thank You" Ley!

I was thinkin' what would be is my journey again, on the next two  months of this year. Since most of it was a mess, 'twas unproductive in a sense i couldn't gauge what to do, staying in the house was my hobby, reading books, sometimes hopping with friends, write on blog and so on and so for. The routine was kinda annoying for me.

So i started to lean back and figuring out what is the best thing to do, to maximize this two more months of this year. I was thinking of having a vacation, gosh! got no budget for it- why then staying with friends and do a lot of escapades, whoa, that would be hard again- a whole bunch of unproductiveness. The first blast of this year, was really terrific strolling in this big city without anything to do, my job was on and off. Got a lot o offers but it turned out to be nothing. I was making some fun of my self, that i myself couldn't find it well and good to have. Lending money, i never used to it anyway, trying my luck.

Then there goes a  lot of "rakets" but it is not enough for me to live, i got a lot of hang ups again and again. Jesus, what the heck was happening to me.

I was floating on a lake, i was stagnant to be specific. I felt tired of my life, i waste it really bad.

At this moment while writing this post, i am in this room where everything are visible, the alluring freshness of the air makes you feel better, as the hand of the tree moves, it is like a dream which is invincible. Ropes are red, signifies the life of being young and vibrant inside and out. The clouds shine as the ray of the sun hits every area of it. As the darkness slowly coming down, seems it would be another festive moment that every human should share. Every struggle were all worth it, they were all treasured in a box that as i gaze up on it i could reminisce every passages which i stumble and learned from it.

First blast of trials, i messed up. But everything happened for a reason- to make us mature in the battle of life. For every guts and every trick we did there would be corresponding lesson we get from. So we better do positive things, maximize kindness and share the love. Because once these thing will hold up, we cannot get them back and do thesame routine as they did. Every sprout of the morning sun, you have time to think back that "life is worth living".....

We must learn to appreciate the beauty that we have,  find great friends, inspire people and we have to find inspiration as well, on what we do, on every day life. As we struggles, let us always think that it might be tricky to solve, but that is a jargon to make us believed "we exists  in the world of the living"...  That everything in this world would come and go, we cannot stick from the past, nor lean on the present but we should never be afraid for our future. As old ones says "let the future problem itself"...

I summed up with this quotes:

“Anyone who stops learning is old, whether at twenty or eighty. Anyone who keeps learning stays young. The greatest thing in life is to keep your mind young.”

Happy Halloween!