As  we draw the centuries back, every woman  in this world deserved to be treated in a way that  they deserved of being who they are- a woman. You might be wondering why posting this, i am not a woman. But being a person who has a mother and a woman who nurtured me to  become who i am today, was a big deal for me. I love my mother and so are you. 

My fellow bloggers Leah  and Angie here in Davao seen this video about woman empowerment, though Leah already knew this matter, she just showed it to us and waited what would be our reaction to  it. Upon watching it,  a lot of ideas were coming in, and we jot down every possible things that we can do to implement it  and let women be uplifted, be encourage to feel beautiful about themselves.

So we came up with the idea of having a small gathering of Filipina women " an empowerment gathering" in which they would share about their experiences, achievements, struggles and a lot more. Ofcourse to uplift them well, we planned to have our speakers, that would give some encouragements about their lives and how did they achieved their position this days.

The Empowered Filipina- a woman of substance will deal with those women who are lack of self esteem, confidence, who didn't feel good about themselves, abused by their love ones and women who had tried to work abroad. What are their experiences while living  and working on other countries.

What do you think about Filipinas of todays generation?
What are the changes that happens to them, as the civilization is moving up higher?
Why did Filipina women were type casted as nannies/ what is your opinion with this?
The STERIOTYPING of Global Filipinas- and how we respond to it?
 How do you think Filipnas "perceived"  around the world?


These questions would definitely bring their enormous strength to prove that Filipinas were beautiful!

This small gathering will took place by December, and hope it will brought greater impact to our lovely Filipinas...

Because Filipinas are BEAUTIFUL-

As i battle with my health issues, i couldn't find any reason not to sometimes blame and feel  the pain that why did i allow my self doing those things which i knew before, it wouldn't brought great results.

Youth are aggressive! Indeed, i live with it, and that causes  a lot of hang ups that happen to me these days, i perceived this  as "reaping time" for what i have done before, my body just letting me pay what is the worth of it. Now that it wasn't great, losing weight, sleepless nights, wound, and those annoying sound of death, who croaking me every night. I personally have problems with financial, cause i live alone. Now that this dilemma happened to me, i don't know what to say or think.

As i gaze up and see the light of the sun, I thanked God that it is another night of survival. Another day that i should celebrate because i made it, waking up in the morning. It was not easy to cope up from something which you already know that it will happen once you did it really wrong way back. NEGLIGENCE, this is the best word that  i came up with, after i screened back my self, of which way i stumble and which way did i blunder. admittedly i "over used" my body, abused it terribly and felt no love for it.

As he is trying to recuperate i feel so damn hurt for the damage that i brought. Guys telling you, from 59 kg. last week now it drops into 56 kg.

Ofcourse YES! And this was the result that i got from:
                                                                                lack of sleep
                                                                                no exercise
                                                                                night owl
                                                                                not taking any vitamins
                                                                                bratt, bad behavior, and ofcourse too much SEX.

But should i be afraid for this challenge? It must be NEVER. Because, it is not yet too late, and it is not yet the time of my death, i know i will "bounce back". My health will be okay, and i can turn this holocaust into something that i am now getting lessons from it. I will survive! I will be healed. As  the Lord moves, he will touched me tonight so as you! He will drench me with his blood and i know i will be better.

To all those blogger who do thesame as i am, PLEASE  stop it as soon as possible, for that would cause something that you won't really like it. Take this as a lesson to learned, let me be your mirror. And start changing your lifestyle today! Do not allow any wrath to wrapped your life up, because it turns that way, you might can't get out of it. and you know what is next. Click here ...

Why then asking my self, evaluation is the best thing to do for whatever is happening to me this days. A lot of questions that boggled my mind and trying to justify every area of which i know i made a mistake. The mistakes that lead me into blaming myself, punching these words "why" and "if only". Well this is life and  we cannot gauge everything that's not yet formed  i mean we cannot assumed that everything that will happen would be right and there would be no wrong from the moment i came out from my mothers' womb.

A crazy thoughts, nerve wracking discoveries, and the painful experiences that i have been through this days is kinda frustrating for me.

Okay, i will not gonna hide the fact that i am losing weight, and having this boils "pigsa" on the whole part of my body! I lied to you that i am well, but the truth is i am still suffering from that holocaust. It was painful; it dishearten me every night, it gives this extreme feeling of distress. I think every month 5 or 6 will gonna surprised me and i will just gonna be shocked to find them either at the back, front, butt, or even on the most precious part of my body (face). It is gawky to showed up, it's embarrassing to go to malls  because it's uncomfortable to walked.

Most of my shirts got this messy stains,that marked, from it. Some people asked me about this, and i cannot even say any words to justify my self, because i know that is embarrassing, really does!

So i went to the doctor this day, and got checked.  I was at first afraid, of what would be is his initial findings, or is this an indication that i have HIV. (hehehehe) But thanked God, he never say any words as this. " do you sleep early, do you eat well and at the right time? " Ofcourse i should be honest, i told him, that all of that questions the answe would "NO". I told him about my boils and how it affects my daily life, and i am losing weight. He stare at me and said, " you might have "toxic goiter" or a "diabetis". Uh! Oh! that's frightening. Gosh....

Guys it would be painful for me to know if i have either of this two. But that  would determined my faith to God, and  i know He will helped me from this case. I believe that " For with God, nothing is impossible" (Luke 1:38)

I have to do this series of labs. CBC
                                               Fasting blood sugar
                                               Creatinine (free T4)
                                               TSH                                                

                                              
I don't know what are those, but i will keep you posted from time to time about  my situation. To those people who loves me, and who know me in this Blogosphere, i need your help. PRAYER!

Thank you so much...

The vivid color of autumn
And the vast collection of a morning mists
Drops in a thirsty city of life
that every crack close like satisfied baby....

insignificance it may  think
the era of every generation
qualms and clamor all will be heard
on riffraff whose hearts' bleed....

the tweet of a little yellow bird
the clanking sound of an approaching train
the sound of a new born son
is a marked of a new born plan.....

an old days had passed
but to reminisce is a choice
on a ruined happiness was
or the achievement's flashed...

the black zigzag road
the spark of a neon light
antique number and stains
are the picture of the untold skirmish.....